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athmlldy411
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   Posted 12/1/2006 10:57 AM (GMT -7)   
November 1st i had the worst anxiety/panic attack i have ever had. 2 years ago i suffered from depression and would have small attacks but this one hit hard. i spent 2 hours in the bathroom crying talking to myself shaking all over and could not make anything stop. it was just too overwhelming. i went to the dr after spend 2 weeks on my  couch and couldn't even talk to him . one week later i was back at the dr. and he was changing my meds already because i was able to give him a little info. so he suggested some where that had a full time counselor and doctor. i go to this place to find out that it is a psychiatric hospital. NO i was not admitted but sometimes wish that i would have been. i am on seroquel and valium right now. my first appt with a therapist is this coming thursday and i have not been able to get a hold of the psch. that was recommended. i'm sorry this is so long but just being able to get it all out sometimes helps.
 
one quick question - do any of you ever feel VERY PARANOID or hear voices?
 
 
god bless you all

Mooney123
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   Posted 12/1/2006 11:57 AM (GMT -7)   

maybe a little paranoid sometimes, but not in a way that i think is a problem.

are you hearing voices? if so, how long?  how old are you?

 

 

Twiggygal
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   Posted 12/1/2006 12:17 PM (GMT -7)   
Ummm I get paranoid about having diseases...

and I don't hear voices per se... it's just that when I'm panicking or starting to I have the endless 'mind chatter' where I'm thinking a million things at once... 'what if this... what if that'.

Are you hearing voices? And what kind of paranoia are you experiencing?


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athmlldy411
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   Posted 12/1/2006 12:36 PM (GMT -7)   
the voices are more like me talking to someone in my mind that isn't there it is not like they are telling me to do things or anything like that. sometimes at night i can hear people carrying on a conversation with each other but can't make out what they are saying. and yes there are always 1200 things going on in my mind at once. my paranoid episodes are fears that someone is going to come to visit me so every car that goes up the road makes me paranoid. i have a fear that someone is standing over me at night - that is why i am one the seroquel - the valium just keeps me calm during the day. oh yeah and i have been told at the pschy. hospital that i am not schitzoprenic or bipolar. so i am just wondering if this is something that anyone else is facing because i fee SO ALONE right now

Mooney123
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   Posted 12/1/2006 12:57 PM (GMT -7)   
oh, i had that for awhile too. that's panic disorder. I was so worried at the time about hearing voices (cause i was worried about becoming schizophrenic) that i would listen extra hard to everything. I tried to check myself into a hospital cause i was so worried.  I used to wake my b/f (at the time) up at night thinking i could vaguely hear people talking outside. Even the refrigerator noise made me freak out! 
 
My uncle used to have paranoia and delusions cause he was schizophrenic. He used to talk about the CIA alot. Some people think the TV is talking to them.  Now if you have those kind of thoughts.... redface

athmlldy411
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   Posted 12/1/2006 8:57 PM (GMT -7)   
that was one of my biggest fears was being schizo because i too had an uncle who was and he always thought that president clinton was talking to him it was really scary so when all of this started happening to me i thought that was my problem but it isn't . i have had a really bad day today........ i slept all evening and now that i have taken my seroquel i am ready for bed. i hope that everyone gets thru the night well.
see you all tomorrow night.......... big shopping trip tomorrow if i can make it.

god bless all

Howlyncat
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   Posted 12/2/2006 4:41 AM (GMT -7)   
Welcome
I believe it is Anxiety / Panic myself and I know you have come to a great place for support and understanding of what you are or have gone thru
The ppl here are fantastic and support one another 110% so again welcome glad to have you aboard sorry it is because of this DD but know you are not alone
Take care
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athmlldy411
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   Posted 12/2/2006 7:05 PM (GMT -7)   
well i have had a very active day today. i went shopping with some of the ladies from our church. as soom as we got to the mall i had a panic attack........ i couldn't breathe and i just wanted to sit in the floor and cry my eyes out.. i took a valium and within about ten minutes or so i was ok. i had a few more attacks but not like the first one. now late this evening i had to see my sister in law and her husband ( big story there) so i started having another attack.... to half of a valium and have calmed down alot. now i am at home and it is already time for my night time medicine. here is the delimu ------------ i had a fairly good day today and usuallly do once i get out but the i pay for it for like 2 or 3 days. i panic , my anxiety level just goes crazy and i feel like i am having a melt down. so don't be suprised if i show up begging for help in the next few days.


god bless you all

Mooney123
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   Posted 12/2/2006 7:41 PM (GMT -7)   
uhhh, shopping! I think the mall sends lots of us in a tailspin.
 
 

athmlldy411
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   Posted 12/3/2006 2:56 PM (GMT -7)   
once i get out i am ok sometimes that is. like yesterday as soon as we walked into the mall i went straight into an attack. then after my meds it was like i was ready to go all day long. my attacks come and go and i can't control that at all. the anti social part ........ well i am pushing myself just as hard as i can without landing myself in the hospital for real this time.
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