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debaser
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   Posted 12/5/2006 4:21 PM (GMT -7)   
Right now I'm having a real tough go of it, and assume it to be a panic attack. Unfortunately there are no friends or relatives I can call right now because they're all stuck in the rush hour or otherwise unavailable.

I'm really freaking out.

I've been going to this hospital for stomach problems, and it's about seventy miles away. This morning I had a test there...a "glucose breath test". I was under the assumption that it would only take a few minutes, afterwhich I could turn around and drive right back to work and take care of some business. When I get there, however, not only am I informed that the test would take two hours, I'd also have to drink this stuff that could possibly make me sick. I called and canceled my first morning appointment at work, and proceeded to drink the stuff. I'd only gotten through about 1/4 of it before I started feeling ill. I'm pretty sure that was all in my head, but nonetheless I just told them I couldn't do it and walked out. Then the drive home was awful. I was very sick and had to drive a pretty good stretch of very busy interstate all the way back to my office.

When I finally did get to my office, everything was going to hell. I don't know why, but today was just a day that things were going to go wrong. I took care of the most immediate things and left for home because I didn't want to deal with the stress, but still intended to take some meetings downtown this afternoon.

There was an accident on the freeway and it took me an hour and a half to make it the eleven miles back to my apartment. My stomach had started to feel better, luckily, because I was trapped in a traffic jam with absolutely no viable off-ramps, just waiting for things to start moving.

This is a lot more than you'll want to know, but by the time I got to my place I needed to go to the little boys' room pretty bad. I commence to do just that, and what happens next? Toilet is stopped up. Of all days, why today? Why right then? I have no idea...it had never stopped up before. I live in a neighborhood that has shunned every big box retailer that tries to move in, but the big boxes north of town have driven all the hardware stores around here out of business. I had to drive miles and miles just to get a plunger.

All during this time I'm fielding cell phone calls from work. What to do about this? What to do about that? Will you be able to take care of this from home? Etcetera, etcetera. I finally get the plumbing straightened out, but it's too late to get any work done so I just put everything on the back burner for tomorrow.

I've been chilling out for about an hour and half. A few minutes ago I was reading a blog about baseball -- feeling no stress whatsoever -- and suddenly I get sick as a dog. This is especially frustrating because I'd been under control when it comes to these stomach/panic attacks for a pretty good while now. I felt bad for about thirty minutes on either Saturday or Sunday, but other than that things have been going really well. Now I'm frustrated and it's making me worse.

The writing helps. I'm not back all the way, but I'm better than when I started.

I'm frustrated that I didn't even begin the medical test this morning. They think my problem is anxiety, but want to rule out problems with my stomach just to be sure. I had another test scheduled for Thursday in which I need to drink a bunch of barium (whatever that is), but due in part to the crises at work and also because I'm just tired of everything, I called and canceled it. BS.

Anyway, I have no idea why I'm feeling bad right now, and it's making me mad. I'm new to anxiety and don't yet have a handle on how it works. Could it be that the stress I encountered earlier is caused a panic attack hours later when I was just sitting around not worrying about anything???

I don't imagine many people will read through this whole post, but if you do, God bless you.

GFK
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   Posted 12/5/2006 4:45 PM (GMT -7)   
I find that when I've had a day like you did today - or even just a few hours of hectic "crises" to deal with - that it is when it is all over and I can finally relax that it hits me. Even though during the rush you can feel the tension, stress, anxiety simmering, hoping you dont snap, etc., the real panic attack hits afterwards. I think you'll find alot of us go thru the same thing.

I get mad too at the "attacks". Just concentrate on deep breathing and relaxing your muscles to kind of ride thru it. Writing a long post to distract yourself helps too! LOL

Hope you are feeling better.
Karen

debaser
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   Posted 12/5/2006 5:44 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks. Your post helps a lot. I thought it was weird that the attack would come so much later. Seems pretty random.

debaser
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   Posted Yesterday 1:27 PM (GMT -7)   
Well, unfortunately, the day I wrote about was just the beginning of a very, very bad week. Until Tuesday I had things pretty much under control for a few weeks. It's unraveled.

I'm a total mess. I can never tell whether I'm sick or hungry. When I start to feel ill, I obviously don't want to eat. So I wait...if the illness gets worse it's usually because I was hungry all along, and then I eat something even though I feel like I'm going to throw up. More than half the time it'll go away after doing that. If I do not eat and the feeling passes, I don't know what it is. But it keeps coming back and the GI says there's not anything physically wrong with me.

That leaves anxiety. I went to the internist on Thursday and he says my stomach problems are due to anxiety. He then proceeds to tell me the anxiety will probably go away if we can get the stomach problem under control. I was in the midst of an attack while I was seeing him and wasn't able to communicate effectively, but he gave me a prescription for something I've already tried and failed with. I thought he might give me some sort of anxiety medicine (nope) or send me to a psychiatrist (thank God he didn't).

I feel like I'm going nowhere fast. Prior to messing up that test on Tuesday I had worked out several "tricks" to keep me from getting sick. None of them are working now.

I don't know what to do.

Howlyncat
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   Posted Today 9:02 AM (GMT -7)   
I am so sorry you have had such a time of it
The toil;et thing I know alot about I have crohns and it hits me at the worst times and yes I have had toilet back up too not good
I think you should be thourouly checked by your doc IMO
As well I agrre that bad anxiety days will cause major panic later on for me anyways
I sure hope you are heading for a better week this week
I am just coming out of a rut myself and it is not pleasant at all
Take care
Lyn
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   Posted Today 1:29 PM (GMT -7)   
I am so sorry that you are suffering like this. My heart goes out to you. Hang in there and let the doctors thoroughly check you like Lyn said. You sound like my friend. She has intense anxiety and stomach problems. They have found nothing wrong with her stomach but she says that she can "never relax" and believes that the anxiety is the problem. I hope you feel better soon.
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debaser
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   Posted Today 2:09 PM (GMT -7)   
You guys have definitely given me some things to think about, and I appreciate that. Straw, if I no longer have a gallbladder how will these alkalines affect me?

I think you're right that I do have to find a stress-free time to eat. Sometimes that's pretty hard to do, though, and like I said I usually don't feel the sensation of hunger like most people do. I feel sick instead, so I tend to eat little things throughout the day. With my job I just can't avoid stress completely. Perhaps I need to learn to manage it better.

As far as taking these tests are concerned, I'm a really hard-headed guy. If you tell me to drink something that may make me ill and do it within five minutes, I'm going to have serious problems doing it. In fact, I'd probably hate it so much that I wouldn't even keep it down. The way things were going on Tuesday, I honestly don't think I could've drank all of it without throwing up. I have managed to take lots and lots of tests over the last few years and nothing except gastritis and a hialatal hernia has ever shown up. The gastroenterologist said there's likely nothing at all wrong with me, but he ordered this tests just to exhaust all possibilities. He's the one who first called my stomach episodes modified panic attacks, and after he said that I started doing a lot better until literally the minute I started to drink that crap. So I think he's right. When I learned about anxiety and started trying to manage it, I did better. To me it's pretty clear and I'm going to forget about the medical tests for a while and see how I do with the "mental" approach.

I do think it's weird they didn't prescribe an anti-anxiety medicine, but I hate taking pills so that's okay with me. If I can't get things under control I'll go back and ask for something, and if that doesn't work I'll go back to the GI and continue where I left off this week.

Anyway, thanks for your concern. I think I'm doing a little better than I was, and hopefully within a couple days I'll be back on the right track. I may try some of straw's ideas, too.

Howlyncat
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   Posted 12/11/2006 4:45 AM (GMT -7)   
I would definitely see your doc and ask for something I dont think your GI will give you A/P meds
I know mine doesnt my family doc handles that for me
I wish you all the best
Lyn
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debaser
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   Posted 12/13/2006 10:33 PM (GMT -7)   
I had written a reply, but I guess it didn't take or I didn't hit submit. Wanted to say thanks for the continued replies.

My internist is sort of like my primary doctor at this hospital I'm going to. He didn't want to give me anxiety meds. I'm not sure I'd take them even if he gave them to me, as I've developed a strong but admittedly irrational fear of drugs. I also fear herbal stuff.

Needless to say, I haven't made much progress this week. The GI said I was having panic attacks and within a couple days I had them under control. For about three weeks, things were pretty good. Then I tried to take that test last week and haven't been the same since. It literally started when I was trying to drink that glucose stuff.

I really don't know how I'm ever going to get over this.
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