hi ryleigh, I can relate a bunch, and yes i do take something similar, i take klonopin 1 mg a day, and yes, it helps bunches. I dont feel anything from the medicine except somewhat of feeling normal,does that make sense? lol I have recently had surgery on diverticulitis, and had some intestines and bowel removed, and am having quite a bit of trouble with pain too, although it hasnt been for 10 years, i do agree, if they were in such pain for so long, they would be psycho also. I have had a hard time leaving my house, and to make matters worse, just started a new job. BUT.... my klonopin does help, and i dont like meds or docs either, but.....it helps me function more normally. I hope you feel better real soon, and keep us posted. hugs
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