Oh my god!!!
Thanks.. Kanika and Steph. I cried reading your responses. I feel so much better.
I'm going to make an appointment to see the doctor!!! I'm so happy for you guys, because you're doing better since the medication.
Kanika... so it didn't bother your boyfriend when he knew about what you were going through?
You know... I'm really afraid of losing my boyfriend, my family, and my life over this. I used to love my life so much, until these bad thoghts came into my mind and I've been suffering from it for 7 months now.
One time my boyfriend said to me that, "Dominicans don't suffer from Anxiety and Depression", and I thought to myself, "If you only knew that this Dominican sitting beside you suffers from it".
There are times that I get so nervous thinking that I'm going crazy, that I can't seem to stop swollowing. I do it even in my sleep. I hate when that happens. Is that anxiety too???
Hot showers calm me down. They've always have.
Thanks for the replies everyone!!! I'm feeling so much better ever since I visited this site.
I'm still afraid of going crazy. I'm telling you... sometimes I dwell on things that don't even make any sence. I tell my family about it, and they look at me and just laugh. They don't believe me, just because I used to be the funniest, clowny person in my family. It hurts me because I not the same person anymore.
I believe that I play Psychological Games with myself, for some reason. I can't control them
Doesn't that sound insane???
Before having these experiences and crazy thoughts, I used to be the one who people would come to, for advices (Boyfriend Advices). They thought that I was great when playing phsycological games with men, so that I could have them wrapped around my finger. I was so good, that I would know what men were thinking just by perceiving their body language. I was good, but now...
I'm the one who needs advices on how to keep my thoughts under control.