How irrational are your fears?

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cfc_kenny
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Date Joined Nov 2006
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   Posted 12/13/2006 2:17 PM (GMT -7)   
I don't know where the line between irrational and rational are for fears,but mine are in the deep end of irrational. Infact some are obsessional fears that come back to haunt me every now and again,just when i think im going to relax. Today's been total stress and anxiety from the moment i woke up.

I was on the bus reading the metro and the first page was about this 'ripper' which is a guy who has been sleeping with,and killing prostitutes in ipswich. I decided to read the article,all though the thought of it provoked a small amount of anxiety. One of the doctors investigating it said 'the mans lack of sexual relations led him to do this' and i instantly managed to have an anxiety attack,because i've never had a sexual relationships and i thought that i could become capable of doing that when i'm older. It's unbelievably frightening to put my mind through that,it's almost as if i have done it already,that's how bad the anxiety gets.

One of the ones that always comes back to haunt me is Mark Chapman-i saw a documentry on how he killed john lennon. It showed you things which had happened in his childhood and i saw things in common-more with his teenage years,and i now think i am a loser like him and i am going to become a murderer-how irrational is that?
The worries go so deep and so irrational,it is byond one's comprehension how daft they get,but my mind set's it's fate round these worries which leaves me doomed to depression and failure. I'm also a hypochondriact in the sense that i worry that i have mental illnesses constantly without being diagnosed,at the moment i'm convinced i suffer from bipolar,but no doctor has diagnosed me.

I have far more irrational worries,the worry of being gay,the worry of having a feminine mind,i'm getting frightened of fear itself now. It's all so tiring and frightening,i've tried cbt,medications,writing a journal,psychologists,psychiatrists,keeping diaries,travelling the world,meditating...i'm left asking myself a lot of the time...what must i do? I am isolated behind an evergrowing barrier of self obsession and i'm continuinally struggling,how long can someone stay drunk on fear?

Twiggygal
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Date Joined Sep 2006
Total Posts : 924
   Posted 12/14/2006 3:41 AM (GMT -7)   
kenny-

I have no clue where to draw the line of irrational and rational fears either.

I mean... I won't go to any mall.. I fear stores... I fear travelling now far than 15 minutes from my house (my travel zone is shrinking as I get more fearful)

There are certain songs on the radio I can't listen to anymore because I would have such bad panic attacks a long time ago and BLAME it on the song so I fear listening to song and think it will bring on a PA.

There are clothes that I won't wear because of how bad the panic attacks were that I had in that outfit that I fear I will have a panic attack again just as bad if I wear that outfit.

Silly I know... but I don't know what to do.

How long can one stay drunk on fear? I wish I knew.... maybe I'd feel like this is not an endless disorder then...

My other fears include if my face is starting to age and change and I'm turning into something evil because of the panic... I just got a gray hair the other day and blame that TOO on this panic disorder!!!

It looks like you've done a lot of things... have you tried coginitive behavioral therapy?

http://www.angelfire.com/planet/cbtonline

That's a free website I made for people who want to do their lessons online, or they can print each lesson.



I fear going a certain way down the road because it might cause a panic attack.. I feel a wave of panic and have to take a different route to where ever I'm going because I don't want to have an accident... it's almost like my inner voice is like.. "no... don't take that way.. go this way... you won't get into an accident."

Weird huh?

Many of us suffer from the irrational thoughts... and I'm afraid I have yet learned how to fix them.

*huggggs*

Twiggygal~
"Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars."

DX: Panic Disorder, Depression, TMJ (Temporomandibular Joint Disorder), Chronic Migraines
 
RX: Ativan/Lorazapam (1 MG a day), Lexapro (15 MG a day), Tylonel for the TMJ and Migraines
 


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