Welcome to Healing Well . :)
I have had similar urges and it is quite frustrating too... but it typically happens after watching very violent movies or TV shows.
So now I avoid those types of shows because for some reason I become obsessed with the very idea you're talking about
and start panicking because I think I am turning into a murderer.... WHICH I'M NOT... it's just my dang mind messing with me...
I've never physically injured anyone (not on purpose anyway... kids always get hurt tho when I was younger I mean).... and I could never see myself wanting to hurt someone... I just became obsessed with the idea of it too....
Just try to listen to some relaxing music and not any violent music or whatever you may be doing that might be inhibiting these thoughts.
We panic disorder sufferers tend to obsess on thoughts... what may run through a person's mind once... repeats itself incesssantly for myself anyways...
Like... similar thought obsessions..
Did I lock the doors to the house?
I know I locked the doors.
Wait what if I forgot about
and so on...
I do that often ... obsessing about
slightly OCD maybe?
I don't know.
"Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars."
DX: Panic Disorder, Depression, TMJ (Temporomandibular Joint Disorder), Chronic Migraines
RX: Lorazepam (1 MG a day), Lexapro (20 MG a day), Tylonel for the TMJ and Migraines