I rang beyond blue today which is a depression/ anxiety phone line in Australia. The lady was great listened to my story and was very angered along with me by the treatment I've been copping.
She gave me some phone numbers of docs who do extra mental health training on their own accord and I saw one today. I spent almost 2hours typing up all that's happened from the last 10mths so she could read it, rather then having me forget bits. She sat there shaking her head and turned to me and said the crisis team are a bunch of idiots and she doesn't like them either as they don't help people.
I'm still weaning off the effexor, she said every 2 days drop down the 75mg and then rang the private psych hospital as they have a clinic there and got me an appointment with a new pdoc. It's actually cheaper to see him too.
She said my pdoc should not have me on all these drugs and as she doesn't seem to know what to do with me she should have referred me ages ago to another pdoc for a second opinion.
This doctor was great, we were going to discuss new meds but as I'll be seeing the pdoc in 2 days she said she'll leave it up to him as he is more experienced. After doing more research I'm still thinking Cipramil (not sure of it's name over there). She also said to me if I feel really bad to head to mums and go to the hospital there as it's a different area with different staff.
ATM I feel really hopeful and positive about
the future, hopefully the feeling will stay. I was told it's normal to feel really scared of being alone, as my meds not working it's part of my current condition but once we get back on the right med, I'll be so happy to get time alone again.
Janet, none of the SNRIs I've tried have worked, they just don't work. I've had only mild side effects it's the fact I still get into deep depression and cry for hours that's the problem. I've been on effexor for about
4months, at least 5 weeks at the 300mg mark.
Lyn, thanks for listening and supporting me, I've been taking the kids down to mums but she's elderly and not well so I'm trying not to over burden her. My inlaws think if they see the kids once a fortnight they've done their job, even though they both drive and the MIL is younger and fully retired at home.