Rock50 - let's encourage and support him through his pain

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hopefulmigrainer
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   Posted 1/9/2007 1:26 AM (GMT -6)   
Hello HW family,
 
We all have a new friend here named "Rock50" who usually hangs out in the chronic pain forums but has suffered some p/a's too.  Rock has been a rock to many and especially to me.  He rallied the troups to support me -- to help dig me out of my hole.  My hole is depression, migraine, skeletal pain and financial dire straights but Rock is in an even worse place, I believe, and he has the most positive attitude and inspirational yet downright practical advice for us. 
 
He's the cheerleader type and those types (i know) don't usually like to spill their guts but I know that our specific love and support for him will permeate his soul (which is very open) and give him wings to fly.
 
Rock was just getting his business started when he was diagnosed with advanced cancer.  He recently had an operation and they damaged a nerve  which caused a rupture.  Consequently, he had his prostrate removed.  Then he went in for a hernia operation and the docs and nurses sneezed all over him and gave him a cold.  Now when he coughs it is even more painful (can you imagine?) and he cannot take pain meds.  He is broke, has no health insurance, he is using private doctors and has $100 to his name.  He has admitted that he is better at helping others than helping himself and I've noticed that he doesn't reach out for help.  But, boy is he needed here!
 
Rock, I hope I'm not overstepping my bounds (I know a man has pride).  You have been so supportive of me.  This is my feeble way of expressing my gratitude to you.  YOU ARE AN INSPIRATION TO MANY.  Now we want to be here for you.
 
Please, everyone, let's give Rock a piece of our hearts -- the piece that keeps us going, the peice that helps us get in the car and go for the dreaded drive, or go to a crowded mall, or overcome depression and anxiety.  I know that it would help him.  Even a cheerleader needs to be cheered on.
 
Rock, you are in my prayers daily for a complete and speedy recovery. 
 
 
 
 


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Post Edited (hopefulmigrainer) : 1/8/2007 11:31:31 PM (GMT-7)


nervymeg
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   Posted 1/9/2007 2:02 AM (GMT -6)   

Hi Rock, I'm not sure if you will read this or not but I just wanted to agree with hopefulmigrainer.  Your post's have always been so upbeat, infortmative and supportive.  They have helped me to look at life more positively on my down days.  I am very sorry to hear about all the bad things going on in your life and I hope you can let us support you through the rough times. 

Like hopeful I don't want to overstep the bounds and offer help or advice if you don't want it, but you most certainly deserve it.  I will keep checking this post, and hope you turn up and share your pain with us so we can help ease it just a little bit.  I will pray you get better soon.


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Howlyncat
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   Posted 1/9/2007 6:00 AM (GMT -6)   
I know and luvs Rock dearly
he is so strong and he** yes he has always got me in his corner
I know from where he has come ...........been there.........
Luvs ya Rock .........
Lyn
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   Posted 1/9/2007 6:58 AM (GMT -6)   
Rock... You are a rock to many and an inspiration to all...Keep up the fight you are a great person...We will always be here for you...
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   Posted 1/9/2007 7:45 AM (GMT -6)   
Rock Email me will ya please
Luvs
Lyn
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a.l.
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   Posted 1/9/2007 4:48 PM (GMT -6)   
Rock- Kelly said it all so well!! You are an amazing person and I look forward to reading your posts.  I am always touched when you rally to help others, even when you are at a "low". Hopefully you are getting some rest and are well on your way to recovery. Wishing you only GOOD things in the future!!

boolie
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   Posted 1/9/2007 9:04 PM (GMT -6)   
Rock...
 
I do not know you but with a name like Rock i am sure that you a fighter! Just remember that you have tons of support here at HW and to take each day one at a time.Good lick and you will be in my prayer and thoughts!
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GFK
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   Posted 1/9/2007 10:31 PM (GMT -6)   
Your posts really are inspirational and thought provoking. I am only one of many that enjoy reading your posts. Hope you are feeling better soon!

Take care,
Karen

Rock50
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   Posted 1/9/2007 11:22 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi guys just got in. I got brave last night, again, and took a couple of pain pills, new better. Panic attacks got here quicker than a overdue utility bill. Man you got to love those things. I am studying them. The seem to attack my worst fears, the number one being suffocation. I know that I'm not suffocating but sure does feel like it. Just a little while ago, I said to myself "well go ahead and die" and then I remembered I got a car payment due tomorrow. So I will have to wait until Wednesday night to die. Man they get worse when I lay down and it's instant. I just hope I don't get in a car accident because they would have to find a ambulance tall enough for me to stand up in because there ain't no way I'm laying down. I knew better but I let the pain get to me and just took a couple of them. I ripped that incision open the other day and it has been nothing but constant pain 24/7. Kinda remindeds me of my first marriage, nothing but a great deal of pain.

Those were some very nice things you had to say. I sure do want to thank you. I was trying to feel sorry for myself but that will not get me anywhere, I'm still going to be in pain. I'm just like all you there are times I just want to feel sorry for myself. It seems like everytime I get a grip on one thing something else comes along and knocks my feet out from under me. Thats why God created day and night, so we could sleep and get a moment of peace. I will take that moment tonight while I sleep and get another wind. I refuse to get out of that bed worrying or feeling sorry for myself. Oh I will want to, but I'll stop myself. Somewhere there is that 5 year old child with cancer that you have heard me talk about. I figure he's smiling like he always is and he will put me in my place. It will be a new day and if I am sincere God may allow me to make the world a little better than it was yesterday. darn that sounds pretty philosophical, I must have read that somewhere. If all that does not work, I will simply walk over to the refrigerator, get a beer and get drunk (Just kidding.)

Folks the whole key for me tonight is to realize I am tired, its been a long day, I'm in pain, and depressed. I recognize this and most likely allowed myself to get into this mood. I'll guarantee you that somewhere today I could have stopped these feelings and had a pretty nice day. But I chose to stay in the negative and I almost wasted the whole day. I don't allow this to happen often, because in the morning I will realize I still have the same problems. Chances are that I could have solved several problems today, if I had been positive, and I would not have to wake up to them in the morning. So tomorrow I'm not going to get depressed that I wasted a day, hell I'm just human and had a bad day. But I ain't having two in a row, thats when it starts to get dangerous. Besides it's a hell of a lot more fun to be positive.

Finally, I said I ALMOST wasted the whole day but I sat down here and found the message you all left me and right now I feel pretty FANTASTIC!!!!! Because I took the time to talk with some of you when you were having a bad day, it kept me from running this whole day, because tonight when I got home you all were here talking to me. Thats why I do my best to stay positive, worked out pretty darn neat don't you think. Folks positive works I just proved it again. Good Night and God Bless

KEEP THE FAITH
Love Eric

Post Edited (Rock50) : 1/9/2007 9:43:29 PM (GMT-7)


Howlyncat
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   Posted 1/10/2007 2:09 AM (GMT -6)   
Keep being strong Hun you will get thru this for sure
We are as you know all here for you
I have had a few of those dang days lately too sit and just wallow and have a pity party
* only on that comes is me *
You are definitiely an inspiration to us all
Luvs
Lyn God Bless
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hopefulmigrainer
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   Posted 1/10/2007 3:59 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Rock, I'm sorry that you had a bad day.  Pain leads to depression and we all have our "good days" and our "bad days."  Sounds like you had a bad day yesterday.  It's okay to lick our wounds once in a while.  Today is a new day and I hope (and pray) that you are feeling better. 
God bless,
Kelly
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nervymeg
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   Posted 1/10/2007 7:09 PM (GMT -6)   
Sorry to hear about the pain Rock, It makes my whingeing about IBS seem pretty stupid but I know how constant pain can just drag you down.  I really hope you wake up feeling a lot happier tommorow, cos I've got all my toes and fingers and nostril hair (just joking) crossed for you :-)
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Rock50
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   Posted 1/10/2007 11:23 PM (GMT -6)   
Thanks again. I dropped another 5mg of methadone today. That takes me back to 15mg per day. I tried 15 once before and it was to soon, so I went back to 20. That was about the time I had the Hernia operation. The first 10 mg (from 30 to 20) was a breeze. I could not even tell it.

Boy I guess when you get down to the last few mgs every little bit hits hard, at least thats what I've been told. This has been the hardest thing I've ever tackled. Never again. Well I hope I only have two more weeks of this because it sure try's to keep me down. I did managed to stay upbeat most of the day but I have to fight it all day. Sorry for all the complaining, but I'll try to make up for it when I get back to feeling good. Actually, I'm very grateful that I have all you to talk with. I know more got operated on for cancer and the rupture happened so the family is burned out on me. I try my best to keep my mouth shut around them.

I am normally a real upbeat type of person and enjoy helping others. I used to Moderate some counseling groups and I think when this is all over I am going to get back into it. This forum reminds me of those sessions. I really like helping people and God has blessed me with a talent for being fairly good at it.

Again, thank you for the kind words and I really would appreciate it if you would keep me in your prayers.

God Bless Each of You
KEEP THE FAITH
ERIC

hopefulmigrainer
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   Posted 1/11/2007 12:37 AM (GMT -6)   
Eric, you have every right to complain.  You are in pain.  NEED is NOT a four-letter word.  My family is the same way.  But, remember, God knows you by name and He is with you always.  You would be a great group facilitator.  I, myself, have done that too. 
 
You are in my prayers daily. 
 
Keep up the good fight.
 
Kelly
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Howlyncat
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   Posted 1/11/2007 4:50 AM (GMT -6)   
Hun you know my opinion on the situation
I think you should get back into couselling or moderating once you are up to it
My family is same I dont bother letting them know as much as I do ya all on here
Be well my friend
In my heart thoughts and prayers
Luvs
Lyn
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nervymeg
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   Posted 1/11/2007 5:50 PM (GMT -6)   
If your family is burnt out please feel free to vent here any time.  I sure do!!! I would love to see you get back into counselling, you certainly have a gift...can I come along?!  It might be a long plane ride though.  I'm keeping you in my prayers.

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hopefulmigrainer
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   Posted 1/13/2007 2:27 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Rock,

How are you feeling? Are you on State or long-term disabililty? I ask b/c you mentioned the money problems. How are you getting along? You are in my prayers daily. I KNOW that you will pull through this and go on to help many people in a counseling/facilitator/moderator role.

Keep looking UP.

Kelly
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Rock50
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   Posted 1/13/2007 10:38 PM (GMT -6)   
Hey guys I thought I was going to be alright with the 15mg and about an hour ago all kinds of sh-- started happening and I am going to try to lay down. I miss talking with all of you. I have got to get off these narc quick. They are ruinning my life. I am not a depressed person and right now I could feel no worse.

Well if I am decent at counseling it's because I have been through a lot and learned a lot. I keep thinking god must have a purpose for me going through all this and I will be better for it in the end. I am going right now and pray and let him know I think I've learned all I need to about depression and anxiety. I may just go cold turkey the rest of the way and take a few days of hell and get it over with. Guys I could use some prayers.

Make no mistake about it I am a fighter and I will win this battle but I have to admit its the darnest fight I believe I have ever been in. If not, it sure as hell has got second wraped up. I am not going back to 20mg if I have to stay up for days.

Before I forget, anybody who can drop Krissie a line and make sure she is doing alright. I want to write her but I want to be on top of my game when I do. I have went through a lot of the things she is experiencing and believe me she can use you guys.

Thanks
Eric

a.l.
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   Posted 1/13/2007 11:34 PM (GMT -6)   

Hey-Eric-

Sorry to hear you are having such a rough time- but you WILL get through this!! As I mentioned before, my husband was on 250 mg fentanyl patch plus lortabs (I have since heard from other docs and nurses that 250 is more than they generally give terminal cancer patients!!!)- he started weaning down, got down to 100 and then decided to go cold turkey- he did have a few really bad days and then some more not so great days, but he got through it (I think it was just as hard for me watching him go through it!)- he was determined, as you are, and that drive got him through!! You are such a strong person and I can tell that you will always accomplish your goals! So hang in there- you've come so far- just a little bit to go!!

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