I can completely relate!! All the things that I have been doing lately that normally would be so much fun to me aren't so much fun (though I fake it). Lunch with my mom and daughter today felt like an obligation (and used to be something I was excited about!) I sat there and attempted to push positive thoughts in my mind, but unfortunately kept thinking that the reason I was able to have lunch with them today was because I am out of work. But, I had to remind myself that I've been through this mental state before and there IS a light at the end of the tunnel. At least we are getting some relief during the day now, so that light is one step closer! I try to be grateful for something every day- and I am grateful for not having the CONSTANT anxiety that I did at one point. I also think this time of year is tough- don't know how the weather is where you are, but here it is dreary, which never helps! I know you and I are upset about our "relapses", but I am grateful for feeling fairly "normal" for 10 years!! And those good days are coming again soon!! Hang in there!! Know that I am thinking of you!!
You have come such a long way in the past month or so..I can remember some of your previous posts about your fear of going out esp before xmas etc..and here you are in 2007 going out for lunch..proud of you
Hmmm...I am finally learning not to Fight the anxiety...but to accept it...get in your little boat lol and float on past it...pretend it doesn't exist..immerse yourself in good conversation..the menu...the view..some hunky guy at another table..anything you choose lol..you may just suprise yourself one day and realise that the only thing missing at lunchtime is indeed your old friend Anxiety!