Hey everyone. Especially Lyn, since I know you were waiting for me to get answers from my dr. Well he doesn't think it is the condition you have. He thinks its plain and simple abscesses caused by a low immune system caused by severe depression. They took blood to run basically every blood test imaginable. Still waiting on those results. But in the meantime he put me on anti depressants and gave me some ointment to put on the bumps when they first start, to see if that helps. He also told me to lose some weight and change my diet. And of course to quit smoking. He thinks all these things are contributing to the depression which is causing me these abscesses.
I just want answers. Him telling me I am severly depressed isnt really giving me any answers because i dont feel depressed. Im not saying its not possible I just really dont believe I am. You would think I would be the first to know if I was depressed. I am just tired of feeling like crap and having those abscesses and my heart racing and just overall feeling sick. Im tired of it. I dont even remember what its like anymore to feel good. To feel healthy and alive. To have energy. I feel like the worst mom in the world because I am just too tired to play with my kids. My heart races too much when I try and do anything.Hell I can barely clean my house. Thank God I have a best friend and husband that try to understand and help me out or i would be lost. I just want to feel good again. And it just seems like I never will.
Expecting life to treat you well because you are a good person is like expecting an angry bull not to charge because you are a vegetarian.--