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Madasincrazy
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   Posted 1/15/2007 2:45 AM (GMT -6)   
frist off i want to say that I'm sorry for neglecting you guys and only stopping in every couple months at two am in a crisis state but i've been very busy lately. I have been panicing for at least three hours now, hypervenilating and the works. Pretty much having the worst day ever. Everything has been happening lately, the holidays are over, i made the decision to drop out of school and then was convinced to enroll in school again yesterday and it starts on Tuesday, i haven't worked in three weeks because i had off but i keep panicing and thinking maby i was suposed to work eventhough i know i wasn't. I still haven't turned in my availibility for the new semester and i'm suposed to start work on tuesday as well. My sad excuse for a social life, the sunday writing group has four new memebers, and also lost four, so pretty much all of my friends have been replaced at once. I'm sure these people are going to be as great as the last bunch and i still have the one guy who started the group. I got high for the frist time the other day, i don't know why i did it..i just did. It didn't do too much for me and now it's just another thing to think about. I don't have that many friends and when i stopped going to classes last semester i stopped talking to the few friends i did have that often. I am realy lonely right now even though my roomate and best friend of ten years is sleeping in the other room, he's just been distant lately. I know he thinks that i'm a drama queen because i am but he doesn't understand how terrified i am right now and he's not realy good at dealing with that kind of stuff anyway. There was this one guy i used to work with that kinda got me and stuff, at least it seemed like he respected me more then most people do, but he quit and his last day was the last time i worked. I've been seeing a pyholigest but she's out on vacation for the next few weeks or i would just call her or somthing...i don't know if i realy would though because i'm sort of afaide of phones. Now i'm just rambling. Oh and i lost my apartment keys and the spares so if i go out i can't get back in so when my roomies at work (most the time) i can't leave my apartment so i'm as good as housebound until i get a new key. I returned the movies late and i had to pay a fine...I killed my only house plant...it's just been a bad day and i want to cry and i want to forget it ever happened but i can't.

Howlyncat
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   Posted 1/15/2007 3:38 AM (GMT -6)   
Wow
I think ya need to take a step back hun remember some of the good things that have happened
THERE has been some of them I recall ........
Losing your keys is not unusual everyone does it ...get a new one ....
I kill plants all the time lol.........get another and try all over it will be fine
I am so sorry you are having all these problems but sweetie they are workable all of them except your therapist can you call a crisis line and talk to someone anyone ??
YOU will be okay I know that and deep down you do too
You are strong and ill get thru this
Know we are all here for you
I am sorry I wasnt on yesterday been real sick and going to ER my self today .......
I know others will be around to boost you up and lend there ear and support you hun
Please keep in touch if ya want to email me go ahead I wont mind I will get back to you later tonight though okay
Luvs ya
LYN
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jordaNZone
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   Posted 1/15/2007 5:13 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi an***..
Good grief..slow down for a moment and relax...sheesh...
None of your problems are unsolvable - lucky you lol!
How about using a daily diary/journal to keep track of what needs to be done and when..that way life becomes a little easier and less panic needed :))
Getting high - not a good plan but you already knew that eh?
Do you have family members or a crisis line as Lyn suggested that  you can ring for support until your therapist comes back from holiday?
Try and take back some control of your life...you can do anything you set your mind to :))
Maree

Howlyncat
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   Posted 1/15/2007 6:35 AM (GMT -6)   
Thanks Maree
I was going to talk about the drinking but I think by now eveyone here knoows my opinion on the booze issues lol
Dont wanna sound like a broken record

Maree is right
THE booze wont solve a dang thing it will only make things worse the NEXT morning ya know
Luvs
Lyn
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                God Bless .........Lyn
Make The Best of The New year .......You Can and Will Reach your Goals
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MsKittie
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   Posted 1/15/2007 8:05 AM (GMT -6)   
Hello antwat
 
Wow you wore me out just reading everything you wrote...lol. You do need to slow down hun and focus on one thing at a time it really sounds to me like you are very over whelmed with everything. You are in my thought and prayers hun.
(((HUGS)))
   MsKittie
 
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Being happy doesnt mean everything's perfect.It means you've decided to see beyound the imperfrctions!God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but HE did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears & light for the way                                        

 

 


Madasincrazy
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Date Joined Jul 2003
Total Posts : 116
   Posted 1/15/2007 3:33 PM (GMT -6)   
Thanks all...i wasn't even sure if i had posted this b/c i lost my internett last night...and i toatly forgot to mention that my astrainged father decided to come back into my life on Saturday. It's been a long week, i'm at the coffee house now trying not to cry to loudly, it's good that i'm here though, i got my keys replaced and i'm going to go into work and give my boss my availbility next. I know everything is going to be O.K. just being out here and walking in the fresh snow and knowing that i live in the best city in the world makes me happy. I have a great job right now and i'm going to a great school and i have a great shrink in case either of those things don't work out for me. I have a great family even if they are not typical great, i probably won't get high again and i will get a new plant, or nurse the old one back to life. My roomate told me the same things...everyone around me is so great and supportive. I might even turn my phone back on.

PEACE - ZAMP

jordaNZone
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   Posted 1/16/2007 3:55 AM (GMT -6)   

Big smiles and hugs for you an***...glad you feeling a little better :-)

Maree


MsKittie
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Date Joined Jul 2006
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   Posted 1/16/2007 7:55 PM (GMT -6)   
(((((Big Hugs))))) Artwat great thoughts and I love your outlook. Keep up the positive thinking. yeah
(((HUGS)))
   MsKittie
 
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*  
I have an illness, My illness don't have me.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*                                      
 
Being happy doesnt mean everything's perfect.It means you've decided to see beyound the imperfrctions!God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but HE did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears & light for the way                                        

 

 

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