I have been having problems lately.
Such things as my brain feels weird.. almost tightened... like it's being squeezed and when I look at things in the night time I can't almost look at them because it feels so weird.
I've been feeling like I'm going to have a bad panic attack because I haven't had one in 3 weeks, but I'm getting anxious because I haven't had one. Anyone ever felt that?
I just needed to share that with you all.
I haven't been around in a while because I don't know how to think or feel. Starting this new business has been wildly crazy and I haven't had much time for HW... but I'm feeling so odd lately that I don't know what to do.
I feel panicky most mornings.. and then it subsides... and I hadn't even taken my meds even when it subsides...I feel a supressed rage... specifically towards men (no offense to the men here) but they have done nothing but hurt me...
I feel alone.
I feel dark and afraid of what may come.
I feel as though I'm venturing out on my own and don't know who to trust.
I'm sorry I haven't been here.
I just don't know what to do.
I'm not exactly panicky, but I'm anxious. I'm scared. I almost had a panic attack today because I forgot my pills but turned around and went and got them so I would feel safe.
I wonder if I should quit my Lexapro... but then I don't think I should because I feel remotely like myself again.
"Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars."
DX: Panic Disorder, Depression, TMJ (Temporomandibular Joint Disorder), Chronic Migraines
RX: Lorazepam (1 MG a day), Lexapro (20 MG a day), Tylonel for the TMJ and Migraines