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Chris711
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   Posted 1/26/2007 3:50 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi,
 
My name's Chris, I'm 23 and from the UK. I think (hope) I may have some sort of anxiety disorder and wondered if you guys could help.
 
I'll go back to the beginning....
 
about a month ago I started feeling faint (almost as if I wasn't in my head, but wtaching it on a tv) and slightly nausius, this went on for about two weeks, at which point I started to wonder if I was diabetic. It didn't worry me especially, but it did occur. I went to see a doctor (a GP as we call them over here - general practitioner rather than any kind of specialist) and amongst other things she examined the back of my eyes and did a few co-ordination tests and comissioned a blood test. During the eye examination, she paused on one eye and re-adjusted the lense or something.
 
Afterwards when I got home I felt a strange sensation in my face around that eye - I think this was now my muscles tightening. This stayed along with the light headedness and general feeling of ill health. It started to get really bad and I began to shake as well - all over as if I was shivering - so I went to an out of hours doctor service, by now convinced I had a brain tumour. He repeated the basic exam the first doctor had done and when I explained a strange tinglign feeling in my muscles as if I'd just had a fright he asked "what is it you're afraid of?" and persuaded me it was anxiety. I stopped shaking almost immediately and the faintness seemed to reduce.
 
Gradually the faintness subsided and I began to develope a tremor. This seemed to be all over, but centered around my head and shoulders. It wasn't visibly noticeable, but felt very disturbing. I also noticed a slightly stiff feeling in the top of my right forearm, mostly on the underside (ie same side as my palm) up to the elbow, but attributed this to my new excercise routine which includes press ups - something I've never done regularly before. I've also been doing a lot of running and putting most of the force through my right leg, due to an injury on my left.
 
One day earlier this week I was at work and noticed the little finger on my right hand felt strange, slightly numb even. It went very stiff, although I could still move it more or less normally, but it felt uncomfortable. The stifness in my arm remained and occasionally I had the tremor - this time mostly in my face. I thought it was on both sides, but feeling the muscle movments I now suspected it might just be on the right.
 
The sensation in my finger went away yesterday and was replaced by the facial tension - almost entirely on the right hand side again. Today the facial tension has largely gone, but the stiff feeling in my little finger and right arm has returned along with a milder sensation of the same type in my right thigh near the knee and in my finger atleast it's enough to give a permanent strained feeling (maybe like a minor cramp?). In addition I've been getting odd sensations, a bit like pin pricks or a very, very localised burning. These only happen occasionally, but frequently enough to be identified as the same thing. They occur anywhere from head to toe on my right hand side.
 
Although I did get very worried about "my brain tumour" and I have since had brief moments of obvious anxiety because of whats going on I'm not conciously worrying about it. The symptoms sometimes get better when I relax, but they never completely go. On the other hand they do seem to come and go and I only really get one at a time. I'm a reasonably fit 23 year old man, very light drinker and non smoker and I've always been very self reliant and level headed in the past - could it really be anxiety?
 
To recap:
 
* Muscle tremors, especially around my jaw
* Facial Tension, almost if not completely excusively around the right eye
* Basic co-ordination and touch test Ok'd by my GP a few weeks ago
* Stiff feeling in my right arm, leg and little finger. Quite extreme in my finger - to the point where it's almost restricting movment. Also painful strained feeling occasionally around the same area.
* Ocasional pin prick burning sensations anywhere from my head toe
* Symptoms seem to happen almost exclusively down my right hand side
* Not necesarily feeling worried when I experience the symptoms, still occur when I'm apparently relaxed
* Symptoms come and go. Usually just one at a time, or atleast one symptom dominating at any one time
 
Think that's pretty much everything!! I think the main points of concern are the fact it seems to go mainly down one side, the fact the symptoms don't always subside when I'm more relaxed.
 
I'm not concerned by the idea of having anything temporary or curable, I'm just worried about the possibility of there being more to it than just anxiety.

Twiggygal
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   Posted 1/26/2007 5:47 PM (GMT -6)   
Alright, now I KNOW this is going to sound like a strange question, but are you right or left handed?

I am left handed, and feel the same symptoms on the right hand side of my body. I have no clue why, but sometimes I feel it mostly on the ride side... sometimes the left.. but when I'm panicking the tingling sensations will spread throughout my entire body... especially in my hands and feet... so bad that I have to shake my limbs and can feel the tingling throughout my arms.

Is your mind racing when you experience this? Are you nervuos or scared or breathing heavily? Have you tried checking your heart rate during these symptoms? Try doing that and see if it's speeding up.

Now, I don't know about the little finger.. or the stiffness... as I dont experience that. I have carpal tunnel in mostly my right hand (even tho I'm left handed... probably because I dial all day with my right hand) but it will become so extremely painful that I can't move my hand.

Have you tried cracking the knuckle in your little finger or stretching it out by bending it backwards?

If you're experiencing one symptom at a time with no anxiety and you are relaxed... I don't know if I'd call it anxiety at all. Perhaps you are focusing a bit too much on each particular symptom, and are just wondering if you have an anxiety disorder.

That's a matter of opinion, but you don't seem anxious at all. I have my doubts you have the disorder at all.. but others will be along to give their opinion as well.

Also the facial tension around the jaw and in the right eye.. well that's what happens to me at the start of a terrible migraine. My right eye starts to hurt... and then my jaw will feel tight.. and then I start clenching my jaw and then I feel pain and then eventually I have a full blown migraine.

Have a nice day.

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libbyf
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   Posted 1/26/2007 8:01 PM (GMT -6)   
When I first read your post I thought sounds like my anxiety syptoms but then when you mentioned your arm and finger I thought not.  Everyone is different but my faintness comes and goes and unlike your arm doesn't bother me all the time.  Not being a doctor you sound like you might have a pinched nerve in your upper cervical spine.  A chiropractor or neck doctor might do you some good.  Thats just a guess and someone more educated than I might have a better suggestion.  Good luck to you.

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   Posted 1/26/2007 8:09 PM (GMT -6)   

Hello Chris

Welcome to HW were so happy you have joined us here. You will find pleanty of support and friendships here. If you have any questions including about this site please don't hasatate to ask anyone.

The symtems you are describing could be many things from a pinched nerve, bad circulation, tension, ect. I do know anxiety can have many faces. I think I would start keeping a jurnal on your symtems...times...day...night...what body part... was you stressed that day/night. Kinda see if there is a pattern when it is happening then take that with you to the dr and tell him what exactly is going on. I hope this helps hun please keep posting so we know how you are doing and again welcome to HW.


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leahbeans
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   Posted 1/26/2007 10:45 PM (GMT -6)   
Hey there
I am by no means a Dr. but Im just going to say its safe to assume none of us are> :-)
What you describe sounds like anxiety/hypochondrianism/possible nerve pinched ?(can cause all sorts of sensations) worst case senario would be MS or something but with that you lose control of your extremeties and fall or drop stuff etc.....  From my extensive experience even if I THINK about a symptoms I may be experienceing it will continue for as long as I let the thoughts have a pattern in my head, whether I am truly afraid or not.  Your mind is so strongly connected to your body in more ways than you know.  You can always go back to the doctor and get your piece of mind, but if you have already been seen twice, make sure you cover ALL of your symptoms, write them down beforehand and make sure you get all of your questions answered, eventhough its probably nothing it is your health and you have a right to be educated.  Take Care and don't worry
Try some stretching and meditation-I swear by it!
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   Posted 1/27/2007 1:39 AM (GMT -6)   
My opinion is.... go see a neurologist for a evaluation. I'm not saying this to scare you and I think some of your symptoms sound a little like anxiety but the eye tension and lightheadedness coincide with a number of neurology disorders (no not brain tumors I think you were freaking yourself out there). As some of the other posters said anxiety does take many hats but you need to be sure to get a good evaluation and a diagnoses before assuming. Hope you do start feeling better, keep us posted.

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Chris711
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   Posted 1/27/2007 7:03 AM (GMT -6)   
Thanks guys.

Well, all the symptoms come and go - there are times when I don't feel any of them really, although that's not common.

The lightheadedness has pretty much gone now and I mentioned the tension around the eyes to my GP who agreed that the whole thing sounded like anxiety "come back if it's still happening in a month..." Should probably also mention the tension around my eye only really started to develop after the first visit to the doctor, where she changed lense part way through looking at that eye, I wonder if it's coincidence or if that set up a complex about the right side of my body. I was convinced I was about to die of a brain tumopur at that point, so watching everything she did a bit too closely maybe!!

I did occasionally have moments of panic whilst I was going through the "brain tumour" episode, but recently I've been worried rather than panicked if thta makes sense. No obvious plapitations or anything. It's on my mind maybe 75% of the time I'm awake (I feel rather on edge) and the rest of the time I suppose it's maybe stuck in the back of my mind somewhere - relaxed may be a relative term. It's difficult to say whether it's cause or effect, but the symptoms do seem to be better when I'm relaxed.

My greatest fear in all of this is MS. However, I went out on my mountain bike recently and had no trouble sliding round in the mud, I also go running most evenings and play the guitar and haven't noticed any loss of co-ordination or balance. I also assumed (not with any real knowledge of it admittedly) that something like MS wouldn't come and go like this does?

The sensation in my finger feels like a muscular thing - not dissimilar to whats happening on my arm and leg, almost like a mild cramp. Sometimes I think the tip is going slightly numb too, but that could esaily be psychosematic and also it's rather cold here at the moment!!
 
PS I'm right handed

Post Edited (Chris711) : 1/27/2007 5:37:31 AM (GMT-7)


Chris711
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   Posted 1/29/2007 4:46 AM (GMT -6)   
Back from the weekend now and heres how things are going....
 
The tremor didn't really appear on either day - may be very slightly on occasions, but not noticeably like before. Likewise the facial tension seems to have virtually dissapeared. The pin prick sensations have decreased considerably too, but they're still present. The muscle sensation persists, although it does seem to come and go - a sort of mild tingling a bit like the feeling you get when you first stretch getting out of bed in the morning or perhaps after a long run. This is predominantly in my right calf and my right forearm near the elbow, but I can occasionally feel stuff around my shoulder and thigh on the same side. The new thing is joint pains - on all 3 joints of that little finger and where my thumb meets my hand on the same side, although they seem to crop up occasionally in other points of the same hand and possibly (mildly) on my big toe and ankle.
 
I've occasionally had feelings of dehydration and light headedness, but I think these are due to having long hot baths (to relax) when I tend to short coolish showers. May also be affected by the fact I'm not sleeping so well.
 
Oh and another weird one - a couple of times I've had a strange 'stiff' feeling in the base of my tongue - possible a slight muscle cramp?

I've seen muscular and joint pains listed as symptoms for stress, could this translate to anxiety - especially on one side? Anxiety (or something worse) is definitely a factor due to the other symptoms I've had, but maybe my excercise program I took up recently has trapped a nerve or something??

Post Edited (Chris711) : 1/29/2007 2:59:42 AM (GMT-7)


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   Posted 1/29/2007 5:32 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi and welcome
Yes I think you should see a neurologist as well and the exercise regime you have started just may be part of the problem it may have to be nodified
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Chris711
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   Posted 1/29/2007 7:41 AM (GMT -6)   
Well, to be blunt, my GP said they don't refer people until they see signs of something dramatic (she gave examples of complete loss of feeling in a foot or blurred vision) I don't think I can refer myself even if I wanted to.

Also, this isn't the first unpleasant disease I've been dying of this month and when I was convinced I had a brain tumour a different doctor persuaded me (temporarily!) that it was nothing more than anxiety at which point the symptoms I had at the time virtually stopped that instant. Next came liver failure because my blood tests showed some dodgy LFTs and I got indigestion basically....

I know it's good to check, but I can't find anything there which can't be attributed to stress or anxiety. The muscle and joint pain, burning or tingling sensation, fatigue, muscle twitches and very occasional faintness all seem to be covered in various palces, including here http://www.anxietycentre.com/anxiety-symptoms.shtml plus I've mentioned the tightness in my face to two doctors at my local surgery neither of whom were worried about it.

Thanks for your help and please keep it coming - I am interested to hear what people say - but it seems theres a 90% chance of stress/anxiety etc. and as long as I press for more tests or whatever the symptoms will only persist whether it's anxiety or something more serious. I don't know if that makes sense to anyone else? I just feel like I *will* find something wrong with me (symptomatcially atleast) if I go out looking for something.

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   Posted 1/29/2007 8:10 AM (GMT -6)   
It sounds like your doctors feel this is psychosomatic, which is not uncommon in severe anxiety disorders. Have you started some counseling and considered taking medication? It would help you a lot, instead of suffering.

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   Posted 1/29/2007 8:13 AM (GMT -6)   
Add another to your list Chris Health Anxiety
Many of us that have A/P also suffer with health anxiety
Some believe they have brain tumor or having heart attacks cancer you name it and they prolly have though they had it
I believe it is very commom for a/p peeps to have health anxiety as we are so in tune with our bodies
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Post Edited (Howlyncat) : 1/31/2007 3:20:59 AM (GMT-7)


Chris711
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   Posted 1/29/2007 11:34 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi guys,

Well I haven't actually been diagnosed with anything - be it psychological or physical, I'm only assuming it's anxiety, because the doctors haven't found anything physical that *is* wrong with me and most of the symptoms seem to fit with some form of anxiety.

At the moment I go through phases of worrying about it - bordering on panic on a few rare occasions and it's just about always somewhere in the back of my mind, however I seem to be ok when I can rationalise things - for example, I started getting a strange sensation on the back of both wrists. This worried me for a while, then I realised that when I'd been doing press ups it puts the force largely through that part of your hand and I'd gone from not doing anything like that to 40 a night after being told to excercise by my GP since the first blood test (I used to be a very keen mountain biker and skier in very good health, but have got out of shape recently and was looking for an excuse to regain it...) Anyway, as soon as I worked that out I stopped worrying about it - the feeling was still there (although it's since gone) but I knew what caused it and I could ignore it. I'm hoping I could do the same with the other 'symptoms' and seal this off as an isolated episode rather than a reocurring problem. I know people do have long term problems with A/P and having experienced it briefly I'm almost as determined to avoid that in the future as I am the various diseases I've worried about - to me at that time I 'did' have brain cancer etc and it was horrible.

You can probably detect I'm reluctant to take the medical investigation any further. I'm worried that if I 'indulge' my paranoia with CT scans etc it might enocurage a psychological problem for the very small chance of uncovering something physical (I'm a fit healthy 23 year old male with no family history of anything neurological and a thurough eye exam and basic touch and co-ordination tests came back ok....)

For the same reason I don't want to take any medication. I'm certainly in favour of warm baths, meditation, maybe some therapy sessions at the very worst, but I don't want to risk becoming dependant on drugs or experiencing any unpleasant side effects, especially after only a month of varying degrees of (apparent) anxiety.

IN that time, I've gone from being predominantly faint, to facial tension, to shaking all over, to a minor tremor, to facial tension again and now to mostly having these joint and muscular aches. The current symptoms do concern me as they involve muscles and an extremity, but given all the other symptoms that I've experienced recently, the fact that I clearly have some degree of health anxiety and atleast a brief examination by the doctor, I'd suspect anxiety (or maybe that plus a trapped nerve, say) over a more serious condition.

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   Posted 1/31/2007 5:08 AM (GMT -6)   
Ok..... now I'm scared!

Just got an email from my mother who used to do some voluntary work at a care home for people with MS, she said [unprompted I hasten to add!] "symptoms can be feeling "odd" and various joints etc. seem to be stiff, not work or go numb" - which sounds horribly like my finger and toe and I'm currently feeling chronically tired and sort of dizzy (although my actual balance doesn't seem to be effected)

Has anyone else experienced joint or muscular problems with anxiety? Anyone had any physical problems that only occur on one side of the body?

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   Posted 1/31/2007 5:23 AM (GMT -6)   
Yes I have on my left tingling numbness in fingers and feet especiaily and weakness ......or stiffen up
I know for me it is anxiety
I wish you all the best
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   Posted 1/31/2007 5:45 AM (GMT -6)   
Thanks Lyn - that's clamed me down a little!

I know the possibility of something like MS is very slight at my age and the possibility of anxiety is much higher (espescially after what ammounted to a full blown panic attack in the waiting room whilst I was at the doctors for my 'brain tumour' to be looked at) the symptoms are just so close from what I can tell. This was driving me crazy last night, to the point where I decided to relent on my 'no-medication' stance, although I'll only get herbal non-perscription stuff.

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   Posted 1/31/2007 5:50 AM (GMT -6)   
I really think you are worrying to much over all of this sit back and try to calm down know your pro's and cons you have much more going for you agaist MS then for............... IMO
as well as other things
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   Posted 1/31/2007 6:19 AM (GMT -6)   
Probably. I wasn't aware really what the extents of anxienty can be - I was a bit disturbed at the lack of the symptoms I'd have usually associated with it (rapid breathing, palpitations, sweating etc) and the presence of these more obscure aches and pains especially seems they're in in very localised parts of the body. Theres no doubt I have been experiencing anxiety and I know the odds are overwhelmingly in favour of it just be anxiety. Scares the living daylights out of me though which is quite surprising as very little else does - I'm usually very pragmatic and level headed.

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   Posted 1/31/2007 6:23 AM (GMT -6)   
CHRIS
LOOK at pics of PYODERMA on page 2
thees are sores I get from too much anxiety and stress as well as from crohns
Stress anxiety can /will do anything to body it wants to IF allowed to
sometimes you cannot hep it as in the case of these sores
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   Posted 1/31/2007 7:22 AM (GMT -6)   
Point taken - looks rather nasty. I don't mean to be insensitive making a big thing of this when there are people who've had it worse and much much longer. I think once I know for sure it's anxiety I should be able to combat it quite well (famous last words...)

I take it you can still get anxiety symptoms when apparently relaxed? I feel almost completely calm now (atleast on a concious level) but my hand is still aching badly. I suppose that's another area where I was being a bit naive - assuming the physical symptoms would stop as soon as I appeared to be calming down.

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I wasnt trying to belittle your anxiety at all hun I was only trying to show you just what this DD can and will do ...I so despise this A/P ........
Yes I am always with some anxiety no matter what unless sleeping but I can work thru most of it
It is when it all comes to a head that is the breaker for me
Wishing you all the best friend take care and TRY to relax a bit more
I know it is way easy to say lol
BUT you know
Have a great day or at least try k
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   Posted 2/1/2007 8:09 AM (GMT -6)   
No offense taken - it's just I firmly believe if I can prove to myself it's just anxiety then I can overcome it, however I know other people get stuck with it long term and I know that must be a bit different.

I managed to calm myself down quite nicely yesterday with a bit of positive thinking and some 'kalms' herbal tablets. Didn't help my sleep that much as I was awake at 4.30 again and couldn't really get back to sleep, but I still felt calmer this morning. Now I've started noticing muscle spasms and tension on my left arm as well as my right, except in a slightly different place. I'm tempted to take a look at the MS symptoms (in the hope they're suitably different!) on the web or even make a doctors appointment, but I know if it is serious anxiety I'll adopt those symptoms as soon as I'm aware of them anyway. The only thing is, unlike a lot of people who've suffered with health anxiety for a long time, I haven't had any CAT scans etc. to disprove the nasty neurological stuff, but like I said above, I think that would make the anxiety worse all for a tiny tiny chance that a man in his early twenties has something like MS. The chances have got to be 95% that it's psychosomatic and I don't want to let it take root in my mind.

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   Posted 2/3/2007 10:53 AM (GMT -6)   

Hey Chris,

My name is malissa. I am from the US and I have a lot of the same problems.

I have been to several different doctors and the last one that I was sent to told me that I might have a brain tumor. The first doctor tried to put me on anti-anxiety medication and tried to convince me that it was just anxiety. I have had panic attacks off and on since high school but this feeling seems to last. I like how you put that it seems like your looking though a tv or whatever. It almost a feeling of nothings real, huh? I can't drive hardly at all because of this illness that I am still not certain what it is. I am scared. I have a three and a half year old and a 21month old. I am scared to leave them if and I am scared that of something happening to me while I am home alone w/ them.

I have to go for my MRI, but first I have to go to a allergen specialist to see if it's allergies which I pray that that's all it is. I have felt strange like this since Aug of this 06 and it doesn’t go away and I don’t get any relief from it ever. I just want to feel normal again.

Thanks for listening.

malissa


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   Posted 2/3/2007 11:46 AM (GMT -6)   
Chris,

Sounds like you are really on the right track. You are practicing some of the basics of CBT and relaxation, working on countering the illogical thoughts, etc. Your reluctance to ask for scores of tests for ailments that are unlikely shows a determination not to let the anxiety thought patterns take hold (good work!) and gain more power over you. I totally agree with your thoughts about your A/P.

What if instead of elminating the possibility of an unlikely physical ailment you proceed with confirming that it is anxiety? I strongly believe that a GOOD professional therapist, psycologist or psychiatrist can be invaluable in helping. I learned so much about how my personality type and years of being a worrier predisposed me to A/P. If you can nip it in the bud early on, it makes sense that it will make it easier to control and change the thought patterns (both concious and subconcious) that feed A/P. There are self help books also, but the one-on-one approach is what worked best for me. It was battling the many years of UNconcious thought patterns that was the hardest to deal with!

Keep in mind that A/P can also involve a chemical imbalance (seretonin primarily) that the "mind over matter" approach may not be able to completely counter.

Best of luck to you and keep us posted.
Karen

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   Posted 2/5/2007 10:00 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Guys,
 
I have to say on the whole I've been feeling better lately, however ironically not so much at the moment - one side of my face/head seems to have a sort of chill, which is a bit worrying - anyone else experienced that in anxiety?
 
I know exactly what you mean about just wanting things to be normal again. I'm really fortunate in my circumstances at the moment (baring the obvious!) and just want to enjoy it. It seems incredibly cruel that something, be it physical or psychological is preventing me from making the most of a good income, good social life, great relationship. I've tried to rationalise stuff:
 
* The sensation in my hand/arm seems to be particularly bad after I've spent a couple of hours playing the guitar!! Me doing that isn't anything new, but maybe I've just picked up an RSI type thing....
* The similar sensation in my calf and toes may well be caused by worn out shoes pressing on a nerve ending in the ball of my foot
* The chill on my face is worrying me (as it's only on one side) but I can't help thinking having my hair cut and a recent cold spell could be factors!!
* I've had a strange feeling in one ear lately (like when you get shampoo in it in the shower!!) maybe this is a sign of an ear infection that is causing the dizziness I've been experiencing
 
All of this seems like very obvious paranoia when I type it out, but it seems like unquestionable evidence of MS or something when I worry about it. There is no doubt that I am anxious - as I mentioned before when I went to the doctors because I thought I had a brain tumour I was visibly shaking and feeling faint (basically a panic attack) yet this dissapeared as I talked it over with him. So, if I combine the rationalised reasons for the symptoms above with anxiety it also explains the hand tremors, insomnia and (from that) fatigue. I do find 'positive hypochondria' helps - where I can find inert causes for the symptoms, such as anxiety and prove to myself it could be something harmless rather than the diseases I fear.
 
I'm a bit reluctant to talk to a therapist for the same reason I don't want to pursue further tests - I'd rather beat this myself. It is slightly unerving when I haven't had an MRI or anything done, but it's made easier to achieve by an under funded state health service over here which wouldn't send me off for such (expensive) things unless I begged them!!
 
Malissa - I'm fairly confident my (our) problems are anxiety. I was *convinced* I had a brain tumour until a doctor told me "you'd have to be very unlucky - you'd need to have one on each side to do that". If it's been going for some time without any really dramatic physical symptoms I'd guess this was also a good sign. I know it sounds strange, but maybe you can take some comfort in it if you've had panic problems in the past - I see the fact I've obviously had problems with health anxiety as evidence that my new symptoms are just a continuation of that (MS would be the third serious disease I've 'had' in as many weeks - I can't have all 3 even if I did actually have one of them!!) I'm sure the MRI's will come back ok for you - when they do, try not to worry too much about the allergy results. I know anxiety is horrible (probably more so for most people - I seem to be quite lucky with it so far) but as I understand it isn't dangerous and can be overcome. I'm not a doctor, but from what I gather these symptoms have a tiny, tiny chance of being neurological and once you've disproved that with the MRI's virtually the only thing that could cause all of them is anxiety. So please don't worry to much about 'finding' something in the allergy results.
 
It's strange actually - I feel slightly embarassed to admit this, but my main worry if anything happened to me was for my girlfriend. I say embarassed, because she's a strong, indpendant 24 year old woman!! None the less, I know what it's like to worry about the effects that something happening to you would have on others. The tragic irony is it could be that very worry that is causing our problems.
 
 

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