I think we have all been there. I know it's very hard for me to pull myself out of it when I'm there. All I want to do is sit at home in my PJ's and watch TV or read my book. I don't want to talk on the phone, see anyone, go anywhere at all. I isolate myself. I know it's not healthy but I just have to work through it. That's what you need to do, is find some way to work yourself through it. I have some relaxation exercises I do, music I listen to, take a long hot bath... But I have to be ready to do it, mentally.
Don't worry about venting, we've all done our share and that's what we're here for, to help each other. Heaven knows I've done more than my share.
Hope things get better soon.
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference."
DX: ankylosing spondylitis, periferal neuropathy, chronic migraines/headaches, depression/panic attacks, bi-polar, hypothyroidism, hypoglycemia, sleep apnea
RX: synthroid, estradiol, prozac, lamictal, inderal la, klonopin, seroquel, imiprimine, aspirin, (relpax, maxalt, phenergan, esgic plus, xanax, PRN for migraine)
Surgeries: hysterectomy 1997, tonsillectomy 2001, deviated septum 2005, cataracts (both eyes) 2006