"The measure of a man's real character is what he would do if he knew he would never be found out." Thomas B. Macaulay
Hi btfinvy..Relax - I have felt exactly like you are right now many times in my life..you Will be ok - don't worry! It's just a matter of going back to your doc. for an adjustment/change of meds and possibly a little counselling thrown in for good measure
When life feels stink sometimes it's a good idea to distract ourselves from overthinking - maybe doing something nice for someone else, taking up a new hobby, jigsaws are great, anything that takes your fancy really.
Keep us posted as to your progress.
ask doc about upping the ativan
remember hot storage spoils these meds
you need a new attitude, relax and float thru your problems, rather than tensing up and fighting back against them
sometimes paxil never works, how long on it and what dose?