I do recall your past with your meds seechell and you don't need to go back to that again for you never know when that kind of depression will hit you again, so when he gets home tell him that you had found the key but did not use it and he we be more proud of you and yourself that you did the right thing and that I'm just backing up what Aussieangel had said for it is true
I still haven't told him or anyone else. I'm really afraid of what he will say and I've been taking pills here and there, not enough to notice, and hiding them again. So obviously, I'm not ok. I keep justifying it to myself. I don't know why. It is like a back up plan for me in case I decide I need them. What is wrong with me?
We had a big blow today. We learned some news about our taxes that hubby's ex has done and will net us $2000 less than before if we can't fight it. I've been crying all day. I hate her so much. And I've been thinking about my stash. I'm not dealing well with anything and I don't know how to fix myself. I feel broken, worn out. I've taken all that I can handle and more. I'm at my breaking point. If one more thing happens, I don't think I'll be safe. And it feels ok to me. I know it's sick and unhealthy. Please put me in your prayers. I need them so much. I need Him to protect me. We are good people, she is not, yet she seems to get all the breaks. Where is there justice in that?
Thanks for letting me vent some more. I will try and get up the courage to tell him. I just know he'll be hurt and disappointed in me and I hate that. I'd rather have someone hit me than get the look. When I was little, Mom spanked, but Dad gave the look. I always hoped for the spanking. The look makes me feel very very very small.
You all have good advise as always. Kittie and Janet, I can always count on you both for a good but firm answer. Thanks for that. I just need to work up the courage. Do you think the Wizard will give me some?
Post Edited By Moderator (Howlyncat) : 2/12/2007 7:50:54 AM (GMT-7)
Hi Mary and wecome to HW
You have given some good input for seechell and I thank you for helping and we all look forward to helping you to as you seem to have a caring heart
But for your safety you may wish to remove your e-mail from this post as this will open you up to spammers and such, you can go to your profile and open your e-mail there and only members can acsess you from there Thank you
JUST what are you thinking, YOU know better then that I want you to go and look in a mirror and take a deep long look at yourself and think hard for you know that this is wrong for you to do. The longer that you wait to tell your Hubby the harder it will be for you to tell him and He will find out when it's time to renew your meds, then what are you going to say to him or you may end up back in the hospital again and we don't want that now do we so go and give him your stash and the key NOW!!!!
No if's, and's of but's JUST DO IT NOW
Post Edited (Howlyncat) : 2/14/2007 3:12:39 AM (GMT-7)
Thanks Lyn for always being here and for the time and effort you put into being a moderator. You are always firm but nice about things. I've never seen you be rude or hurtful to anyone. That means the world to me. I will be thinking of all of you as my cheering section as I go down this path. " Go Michelle, you can do this. You are strong and smart." Honestly is the only way to stay safe and I know it. I honestly love you guys, truley.