I've been having the fear of going crazy too lately...
I know that I won't... but the only thing that offers a bit of comfort for me is HW and Ativan/Lorazepam... hehe
I've had such a TERRIBLE week that for two days straight I wanted to go to the psych ward because I thought I was mentally insane... when really I was having panic attack after panic attack after panic attack.
I think the stress of this guy I had been dating finally overwhelmed me with all my other issues. He wouldn't leave me alone... and was practically attached to my hip for a while and I finally just couldn't stand it.. . even when I asked for space he wouldn't give it to me.
I'm not the most stable person so I lashed out and sent him on his way... and he STILL wants to hang out everyday. I don't think it's healthy for me though. I REALLY need my alone time right now... I really do. I am trying to stay sober and dealing with all my problems lately was driving me to drink.
Sorry for rambling.. haha... we are not crazy... like Lyn said... the rest of the world is...
if we panic disorder/agorophobics/anxiety sufferers were all on an island together... we'd suddenly realize that there are SO MANY of us... and that we all have similar thoughts and feelings... and I think we'd be able to help each other out in so many ways..
but since we're not on that island... I guess I will have to paddle my imaginary raft to the imaginary island of Healing Well... and relax...
"Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars."
DX: Panic Disorder, Depression, TMJ (Temporomandibular Joint Disorder), Chronic Migraines
RX: Lorazepam (1 MG a day), Lexapro (20 MG a day), Tylonel for the TMJ and Migraines