I am having a problem with panic attacks and anxiety which turned me to be a VERY depressed man, so please read my story and kindly tell me your opinion/ suggestions but before reading please excuse me if I am not organized in writing.
7 months ago I was a normal person going to work, living with my wife and children having no special problems except my wife everyday fights as she is a bit nervous. During this time I was also on a diet plan where I was taking green tea pills that include a high dosage of caffeine in order to loose weight. I kept taking those pills for almost 1 month until one day I was so depressed from my wife fights, so I thought of taking one Xanax pill then go to sleep.
Once I woke up the next day I found myself totally weak and can't even stand on my feet, I kept feeling that I am loosing power to the extend that I felt that I am going to die. So my wife rushed me to the hospital where doctors made a full checkup on me including blood pressure, heart, blood glucose and everything was fine!!! Even though doctors said that everything was fine with me I was still feeling so tired and loosing power and I was still afraid to die.
Anyway, I left to home this day and decided to take the day off, and I hoped that by the next day everything was going to be all right. But the next day wasn't alright and I was still feeling weak and I was still afraid from dying...this feeling kept going on for weeks and weeks...every time I go to the emergency room they checkup on me and find nothing and I am still feeling the same way. Doctors started to think that I am crazy and my wife started to think the same :( I started to be depressed (so depressed) and I stopped my weight loss plan (even though it was necessary and recommended by my doctors) due to the fact that I started thinking that if I loose weight again I will die and might face the same problem I faced before.
Finally 3 months ago while I was sitting with one of my friends he told me that I might be facing panic and anxiety problems, and he recommended that I should go see a psychologist. So I went to a psychologist where she diagnosed that I am having a severe depression and panic attacks, I tried to explain to her that the depression was simply a cause of having no one to understand me but she refused to believe this. Anyway, she started giving me Xanax as a medication and after 2 months of medication (0.5mg * 2 daily) I started feeling better and there was no more panic attacks, so I asked her to please start lowering my Xanax dosage, so she starting putting the withdrawal plan which I followed until last week when I took my last pill
2 days ago while I was having my daily walk, I found myself sweating so much, loosing power in my legs, can't breath....feeling that I am going to faint and having a great fear that I am going to die so I stopped immediately and I went home where I was shacking but I didn't do anything except taking on Xanax pill and going to sleep.
Now I don't want to return to the Xanax treatment again as I hate taking or feeling that I am under medication...I am SO depressed because I started having the same problem again...All I want now is that I need to get my life back...I need to be this normal person again without ANY panic attacks or anxiety problem.
Can someone here please help me and tell me how I can get my life back....I am really so depressed, angry and don't know what to do
Thanks all for your help and support