Greetings. I've been on the Fibromyalgia forum several times, but I need some help from you folks tonight. In addition to Fibromyalgia, I also have Social Anxiety as well as depression and pretty much anything else you can think of. Tonight my issue is with my anxiety.
As I mentioned in the subject, I'm having trouble with one of my passions -- singing. I love it. I would do it all day every day if I could. But the problem is this stupid anxiety. When I am alone at home, I sing to my heart's content and do a halfway decent job (in my opinion, anyway!). But even thinking about singing in public gets me all worked up. Even when I'm at work and talking about some song I know, and someone asks me to sing a few bars, I pretend like I can't remember the tune or the words so I don't have to sing. I look like such a dork. I am also in a church choir (there's only about 9 of us), and we are singing a special number. In large groups I do okay, but my voice isn't as powerful as when I'm at home, the quality is severly diminished, and I get out of breath quicker. But small groups are where I have the most trouble. We had a practice tonight (with a microphone no less!), and I was the only Alto there (there should be 2 of us). My voice got all shaky (as it often does), I couldn't hit the right notes, I was constantly out of breath, and I had no power behind my voice. It was awful. I felt terrible. The more mistakes I made, the worse the anxiety became, and the worse my singing was. I came home ready to cry, so I went and soaked my troubles in the bathtub, and now I'm ready to confront my anxiety and figure out what to do.
Tell me, please, what can I do? I don't want to stop singing. I want to improve myself and have the confidence and the courage to SING!
What are your passions? How does anxiety keep you from them? What do you do to combat that?
Please help me feel better about myself!!!