I do know that in the end worrying about things will not help at all, trying to decide just what will happen in the future is a waste and to stress and worry about it causes me nothing but trouble.......
BUT........I just wait for it all to happen. It's not if, it's WHEN. I know it will happen. DH will loose his job, we will loose the house, go into bankruptcy, ect. That is all I can see in my head. I hold my breath each day to see if there is any news. I worry about each night he goes to work wondering if he will call to tell me the bad news.
I can't really talk to him because it all gets to him too and he doesn't need my crap on top of it. I am trying to pay off what bills I can, and save what I can, but I know it won't be enough and things will go crazy.
I worry about becoming really depressed again, it was soooo bad last year that I just don't want to go there again, but I feel like it will happen and I don't want to really talk to anyone because of what they might tell me.
Am I nuts or what!!!!