I was abused by my step father for 4 years, verbal, and sexual.
He used to touch me and try to kiss me when my mother wasnt looking, he sat me down next to him and watched **** while I was there and told me that I liked it, he made me feel things I was too young to feel, yet today I still question if it was my fault, if I did the wrong thing by calling the authorities. My mother still after 4 years doesnt believe me. She thought I did it to get rid of her boyfriend and make her miserable. When she slept alone in her bed by herself, without a partner I blamed myself for her crying herself to sleep. Her new boyfriend's son has a crush on me and he keeps touching me, and I told my mom it was bothering me and she screamed at me saying I think everyone is out to get me and that I think everyone is going to **** me and im freaking crazy. Today in school. Somthing embarassing nad horrible happened. I was doing my work when suddenly I felt a hand on my arm and I screamed and ran against the wall and started crying and said "dont touchme " uncousciously I jsut kept saying it. My teacher just accidentally bumped into me. All my classmates saw this. The man that abused me used to tellme I was gaining weight, im 100 pounds and im 5'6 and he did this to me, I cant eat and I cant sleep without being afraid someone will touchme , I wake up at night if I feel one little thing on me and I get scared my mom is right I do think eveyrone is out to get me. It hurts even more that she doesnt beleivee me. I just dont know what to do.