Hi, I am so glad to have found this forum...I guess I will just start talking.
My daughter is nine months old, and I AM on Zoloft, but had tried going off of it around the holidays (what was I thinking?) When i am not on zoloft and something worries me, I go OCD and worry obsessively until I start having panic attacks. That's why I have to stay on it, at 50 mg.
My problem now is even with the 50 mg, I continually worry about my daughter. It's so hard to figure out what is "normal worry" and what is "anxiety worry".
My biggest problem is that my mother in law, who is wonderful and amazing, lives near us and has a nine year old daughter and a boyfriend who is 43 (she is 52, not that it matters). They have been together for two years and he seems to make her happy. However, I just don't trust him, even for being around him so much and I don't know if it's me being paranoid or justified.
I have talked about this with my husband, his brother, and even his mom! It was hard for me but she was going to babysit my daughter that evening and I couldn't in good faith leave my baby with her and him when I didn't feel okay about him.
So I feel I've done all I can when there's really no huge red flag, just a couple of little ones. I just wish I could know he was a safe person- I don't care if he's weird as long as he's okay to children- how can I reassure myself, or deal with the uncertainty? We see them often and they are continually wanting to babysit- I don't want to go out much because of this and have been pretty direct with him about it (telling him to stop asking me). I think he could be just being nice, but I don't know...