I'm home on overnight leave again. My daughter has a big parade early at school tomorrow. After the doctors botched handling of my meds my pdoc has returned me exactly to what I was on. He just wants to get me even again so we can start psychotherapy.
The week of over heightened anxiety caused by the withdrawal has really taken me backwards to the point I'm scared to face going to the shops etc, so I've been challenging it.
Yesterday a nurse took 2 of us to the markets and we supported each other but when we got into the car to return to hospital the other girl had a massive panic attack, swinging her arms around and holding her breath. It was enough to send me into one so I did a lot of breathing techniques I've been learning.
I guess I'll always be sick mentally whether it comes as depression, OCD or anxiety so besides meds I'm really putting myself into the hospitals program..... learning a lot of techniques to lower anxiety and keep grounded.
One positive thing to come out of it is the foods so bad I've lost about 6 kilos and don't have much of an appetite anymore.