Trying To Be Stoic & Sensible....

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janetlee
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   Posted 3/30/2007 5:06 PM (GMT -6)   
It seems that no matter how much I think I've learned or think I know, I end up feeling like an idiot anyway. I had several really good weeks, pretty much anxiety-free. And yes, I am VERY grateful for them and realize that many folks have not had any good days or weeks in a while (been there, done that!) Nonetheless, when I have a setback, it totally throws me down in a way. sad   The day before last, as I was eating lunch, I had a near PA and I sat there and told myself to not run, jump up or anything. Just to sit there and wait it out. I told myself that it would pass and to NOT make a big deal out of it, as I understand that such thinking feeds the fear. Although I was unable to finish eating, my tummy was too topsy-turvey, I went on about my business as usual. Of course, the memory of it flitted thru my mind on and off for the rest of the day. The next day, I felt some anxiety, but managed to get thru the day okay. This morning I awoke and felt anxy again and was all upset at myself, wishing that the stupid anxiety would just go on and leave me alone!!! But I got up and have been self-talking myself remembering that I've had bad days/weeks/months before and survived them and will do the same now. I still am trying to not get myself all worked up, but it's kind of hard when your stomach feels all afloat! Sigh! I've had diarreah these couple of days from the anxiety and have been sick for awhile with an ear infection which is being treated with drops (no oral antibiotics). My BP was really high when I checked it at the pharmacy yesterday: 173/101. I've been extremely tired too with this ear infection and now a relapse of the anxiety. So I can't help but wonder what has happened to set me back? I always get afraid that the Paxil (75 mg) maybe isn't working, but then again, I guess we can expect trials even with ADs. I've continued to manage w/o taking xanax...in one way, it would be soooooooo easy to take that sweet little pill for relief. But then I get to thinking that if I take it, maybe my self-talk is of no value and I hate that idea! I need to think that I'm having at least some control in my being better! I dunno...if it keeps on, maybe I should take a little xanax...such a difficult decision for me anymore...
BTW, I've noticed from some of the other posts here that others seem to be having some setbacks at this time...it makes me wonder if it's somehow related to the seasons or "something" that we don't understand.
I love you guys...I hope we all feel better soon!
janet
Yesterday's dead
Tomorrow's unknown
Today is here
And soon will be gone.
Use it wisely
Before it's too late
Remember to love
And forget to hate.
janet


normalsnofun
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   Posted 3/30/2007 9:24 PM (GMT -6)   
Janet,

Sorry to hear about your setback. If you are prescribed the Xanax and need it I say take it. No shame in needing it. For us to say that we cant have some anxiety or a PA once in a while would be like expecting perfection. We all trip and fall once in a while. Keep fighting the fight and take it little by little. Hang in there and work with your docs on the med front. Maybe something needs tweaking.


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janetlee
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   Posted 3/31/2007 12:05 AM (GMT -6)   
Thanks Michelle. You're sweet!
janet
Yesterday's dead
Tomorrow's unknown
Today is here
And soon will be gone.
Use it wisely
Before it's too late
Remember to love
And forget to hate.
janet


Jan Marie
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   Posted 3/31/2007 2:57 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Janet. I was thinking about you yesterday and wondering how you were doing! I wonder whether the fact you have an ear infection has triggered your anxiety in some way. I find if I am tired, hungry, pre-menstrual or even just suffering from a cold, that my anxiety is worse because our bodies are so finely tuned and sensitive, so the slightest thing sets the anxiety off. Of course, what we do is to worry and panic that we are feeling anxious. I try to do a little stern talking to myself that it is only because of ......whatever it is...... and sure enough I do feel better anxiety-wise once I am feeling physically better.

Just my thoughts! Take care.

janetlee
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   Posted 3/31/2007 4:05 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Jan!
I hope that life is treating you good! I appreciate your thinking of me! I was wondering about you too as I realize that you and me kind of check in on the site here and there! ;p
I'm trying to keep on chuggin' along. Trying to have the "c'est la vie" attitude...but I feel like having a good weeping session but that doesn't always make me feel any better, so I've skipped it so far...maybe later though!
Take care and thanks for being such a wonderful person!
janet
Yesterday's dead
Tomorrow's unknown
Today is here
And soon will be gone.
Use it wisely
Before it's too late
Remember to love
And forget to hate.
janet


andwes
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   Posted 3/31/2007 4:14 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Jan- Yes, I definitely think being sick triggers anxiety - at least it always has for me.  And it probably had something to do with your BP also - especially with anxiety along with it.  I was so scared to go to the doc last year that when they took my BP it was 230/70!!!!  I'm on Troprol now for BP but I really believe it helps with my anxiety too.  As I've written many times before, I've had anxiety-free periods and then something sets then off again...and I also agree that it's a somewhat cyclical disease - mine is always the worst during the months of January - April but I've had it during other seasons too.  All the best to you.

janetlee
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   Posted 3/31/2007 4:39 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Andwes,
I was on Atenolol until a couple of months ago. It seemed to make my depression worse. It's a beta blocker like Troprol, so I'm in a catch-22!
Thanks for your input though!
I really appreciate it a lot!

janet
Yesterday's dead
Tomorrow's unknown
Today is here
And soon will be gone.
Use it wisely
Before it's too late
Remember to love
And forget to hate.
janet

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