Hello everyone, Well for the last 4 months my life has been hell. I had been diagnosed by my doc with depression in December, where at the time I couldn't sleep or if I did I'd wake in the middle of the night with a rapid heart beat, I couldn't eat and I cried constantly, all of this was because me and my bf were having a rough patch which I will admit was caused on my behalf, I was obsessed he had someone else and I wouldn't settle until he admitted, even though deep down I knew he wasn't as he never leaves my side,I cried at the smallest of things basically all I can describe it as I had like a mini breakdown! but we sat down and talked everntually sorted out or differences and decided to get on with it.
He has stuck by me well and truely through all this and although most of the symptoms faded, the depression never. Hes been great through the tears tantrums and all the rest I've put him through. I simply couldn't have asked for a better boyfriend :)
I was reffered to a councillor who told me that I have anxiety which has caused depression, but I don't get this. She told me she knew straight away from the speed I spoke at, but I have did this since I was child.
I don't get how I have anxiety though because I'm not scared to go anywhere or of anything, I don't suffer panic attacks well that I am aware of and I don't really know much else about anxiety.
the only symptoms I am aware of suffering is:
I still get the rapid heart beat a lot
I wake up far too early and can't get back to sleep
I sometimes get this faint short of breath sort of feeling in my chest
I sometimes get a sore throat when I get this
I am awfully fidgety
I can't stay in one place for a long space of time, I pace about
I talk fast (as I said thoigh I have always did this)
I get adgitated and angry really easily
I am really short tempered and violent
I feel faint sometimes
I used to have crying fits but my meds seem to have cured this, but I still feel teary lots.
I suffer quite bad tension headaches sometimes.
Anyway, whenever I think of my bf, the future, our relationship and especially THAT weekend which it all started when I sort of snapped I get that fluttery horrible faint feeling in my chest
and feel weird.
I hate feeling like this.
Sorry my post was so long but I needed to vent. I hope someone can advise me on my problems.