Safe and comfy in hospita where you learned new skills for coping with lifes ups and downs..and now you free to move onwards and upwards in your life..wow..I wish you well aussieangel..keep up the good work..and keep us posted with your progress.
I even had a big test today, I had to take my youngest to a birthday party in a real busy place. I took the other 2 bowling while there and even braved the shops. The first part of the car trip was a bit nervy but I made it without any major panic.
I don't know if I'm now suffering from the after effects or if it's due to being physically ill. (I've had a rotten heavy head cold for a couple of days now.) I just feel really down so I'm trying to practise what I learnt which is to accept I'm having a sad sad feeling and that it's ok as it comes from a thought and a thought can't hurt you.I'm now adding in it's not me but my ocd as the thoughts have been there for 90minutes now.
I did pat myself on the back for earlier, and bowling was the reward (I even beat the kids ), here's hoping to a brighter day tomorrow.
We were taught to allow our thoughts as living with them is meant to cut them back and down, where as if you try to avoid a thought it'll definitely chase you around.
Wow aussieangel you did really well yesterday and I bet your kids are soo happy to have you home and spending quality time with them..excellent news! You may have a couple of blue days every now and again..but that's ok - you cannot go back to square one Ever again because you have learned all sorts of new skills for coping...The way I cope with the ocd thoughts is to distract myself in some way..move on to another task..and 'cruise on past them' best fits how I manage lol.
Just remember that it takes great courage and a helluva lot of hard work to survive what you have gone through..thanx so much for posting your story..gives hope to anyone going thru wot you have and reassures the rest of us too
Glad to have you back Aussieangel and a now you are starting to spreed your wings here's to you girl the happy dance
The car trip was harder then I thought. I sat there breathing to my watch. I think it's my hormones starting to kick in and so I've booked my daughter in for a haircut which means I really really have to challenge myself and drive up to the shops twice. (she's getting a cut and colour so will be there a while).
I can feel the panic already (so I've just got to let it be. I actually try to visualise the panic as the monsters in the book living with it, while giving them the stunning names of Priscilla and Petunia) my own private panic monsters. It helps to bring me back down a bit imagining them running around me chucking panic tantrums.
Whatever it takes, you do! You are an amazing lady and you've proven it time and again! We're ALL cheering you on and are here for you!
Have you read the book 'Living with IT' by Bev Aisbett..it's done in cartoon form and actually conveys panic as 'IT' the monster lol..I think you will be able to relate to it really well lol..works for me!