hello, i'm sorry if this post takes form as an uncontrolled rant, i am just so fed up, i really don't know what to do.
I am 19, male, and around a year ago i started getting very nausious and having excessive sweating, especially but NOT exclusivily in social situations, but i was very mentally comfortable and happy, and have never had a problem before in these situations. I passed everything off as stress, because it was exam time, but exams came and went but the nausea and sweating got worse and i started getting a lot of depression and became very underweight.
I went on an Acne drug, but after one dose i got so ill i couldn't eat for a few days and never really seemed to get better. The nausea is so bad and so disabling i had to drop out of college, and it's been 8 months now and there has been little to no improvment. I have all the tests and nothing is wrong with my stomach, the doctors just keep saying it's anxiety or chronic fatigue sydrome, but i'm not stressed or anxious and i'm not tired, just sick ALL the time.
I have FINALLY been referred to a pracctioner and a phychotherapist(sp?) in a few weeks, but i just feel really given up on. I worked so hard on getting my grades so i could go to uni this year, but it's in 4 months, and right now i can barely walk to the coner shop so i doubt i could move to london and start a new life.
Do you think there is a chance it is some sort of mental disorder making me feel SO sick and depressed?
I have had a rough life, i was pretty badly sexually abused for about 3 years on and off by a friend of the family when i was a child, i had sexual identity problems in my early teens, used to be a self harmer, but the funny thing is, this is the first time in my life things are going well and i'm happy with who i am - but now i feel too sick to get on with my life. I have a wonderful net work of family and friends, i'm happy with the way i look and who i am, i got into the uni i wanted and am DESPERATE to get to London to have a great time - i don't see how it could be stress related?
i'm so frustrated, PLEASE, any advice would be really appriciated. thanks so much, take care.