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mitcl74
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   Posted 5/13/2007 6:11 AM (GMT -7)   
I have had ocd for about 7 years now.  I still find it hard to deal with.  Not all the time.  I have "harming" thoughts and they still upset me after all these years.  I don't have any compulsions with it.  I went to therapy over the years and found that helpful.  I am still embarrassed by this and it is still devastating when it hits hard.  I find that when I drink, my ocd doesn't bother me, but the next am is difficult.  If I drank too much and can't remember exactly how the night went, I start to get panicky. I don't drink alot.  Usually one night on the weekend if that.  Some a.ms start off with a harming thought and that makes it a tough a.m.  Overall, I do well.  I have a good job and a great family.  My mom & sister & my boyfriend know I have OCD but I never told them I have harming thoughts.  I think people who don't have OCD wouldn't know how to react to something like that.
 
Anyways, if anyone out there has similar problems, please feel free to write to me.

Howlyncat
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   Posted 5/13/2007 7:11 AM (GMT -7)   
I have severe OCD
BUT I have never had harming thoughts of self nor others

Please seek couselling for this asap or call the crisis hotline closest to you
WELCOME to HW
I hope you will stick around and get the support you so need
There is a book called .Brain Lock" rec to me by Porridge and is a great book for OCD..er's

STAY WITH US please

LYN
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harry4
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   Posted 5/14/2007 2:50 PM (GMT -7)   

searching for causes of the unwanted thoughts seldom helps

self help books on overcoming OCD have useful advice

"brainlock' if still available has lote of advice re the unwanted thoughts

OCD is classes as an anxiety disorder, meaning its a nusience, but it wont send you crazy.....


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Aussieangel
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   Posted 5/14/2007 6:01 PM (GMT -7)   
I also sometimes get harming thoughts with my OCD. When I was in hospital I had some and told the nurses and they then wanted to know if I would do anything as I'd have to be upped a level for watching.

Here I was a sobbing mess saying no, I don't want to do anything I don't want these thoughts, thats why I'm so upset.

I really feel for you because I know exactly what it's like. Knowing it's just the OCD not me is a phrase I was taught, taking the thoughts away from myself and giving them to the illness where they belong can help. Also there are certain meds that can be taken when needed that pull the thoughts so far away from you, whilst they're still there they're no longer are important. The meds really make you drowsy though.

ediekristen
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   Posted 5/14/2007 9:22 PM (GMT -7)   
I have the same problem... Sometimes I won't even be upset and I'll start thinking about harming myself. Or when I am upset it gets to the point where I'm sitting in the bathroom ... But living with my boyfriend, that's just impossible, so I end up deciding not to at all, which is great. Or I'll sit and think of ways I could do it that could be explained as an accident and I don't even want to harm myself anymore but I can't stop thinking about it, it feels bizarre.

A lot of people on here have great advice, I'm glad I've found this site and I hope you find it helpful as well. Sometimes good support can make all the difference in the world.

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Post Edited By Moderator (Howlyncat) : 5/16/2007 2:39:32 PM (GMT-6)


porridge
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   Posted 5/15/2007 8:39 PM (GMT -7)   
This will help. It helps me.
Luvox-CBT-the book "Brain Lock."

Howlyncat
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   Posted 5/16/2007 1:40 PM (GMT -7)   
Yes it will
I have been reading it and it is doing the world of good for me .....
Thanks again Dave my friend ........
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frar
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   Posted 5/16/2007 5:00 PM (GMT -7)   
Years ago OCD wasn't yet known so they called people "worry warts"....everyone has negative and harmful thoughts on occasion but OCD folks focus on them......they trick is to go to a good psychiatrist and get some good meds.... and share yourself with caring people who will understand. God's blessings.
F.


mitcl74
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   Posted 5/17/2007 2:59 PM (GMT -7)   
I've had OCD for 7 years and I've read BrainLock and another book called The Imp of the Mind, Tormenting Thoughts, along w/ many self help books on anxiety & panic. Most of the time, thru the training I had at therapy, self help books and speaking w/ others who have shared my experiences is very helpful.  Some times though, my mind just gets "stuck in gear" and won't quit.  One of my problems, among others, I guess, is that I don't drink a lot, but when I do, sometimes I go overboard and then the next day I don't remember everything that happened.  If I'm w/ my boyfriend of 13 years, I feel safe, as I know he will protect me.  However, when I go out w/ my girlfriends, I have this irrational fear the next day that I slept with people.  Even though I never did, I start to worry that I did.  I got to the point one day, that I had to ask a friend of mine and I felt like such an idiot.  The only good thing, is she has panic attacks, but she never told me she had OCD.  she kind of laughed and then realized how upset I was and told me I didn't do anything wrong.  I also get scared that I say mean or inappropriate things to people if I've had too much to drink.  Anyhow this past weekend I drank too much and my boyfriend came to get me.  I passed out at home and I know I didn't do anything, but then this fear sets in.  I fell on a public toilet seat and was worried all day Sunday that i had caught a disease.   I am not feeling well today (very tired) so my mind races saying I must've slept with another man and now I have an STD or bad disease and that is why i am feeling this way.  It sux having OCD.  when I 1st got it my life was unbearable for months.  The panic NEVER went away and I felts I was crazy every day.  I went to work and never lost my job, or was in jeopardy, but I only slept about an hour each night.  I was too scared to do anything.  My life, right now, isn't like that.  This ocd comes & goes.  I learned thru my therapist than anything "new, strange, different" or that I am not in control of are big triggers for me.  So, not being in control this past weekend w/ drinking and not remembering every detail that happened worries me.  I am not promiscuous.  I've never been w/ anyone else.  The sleeping w/ other people thing just happened more recently - the thoughts.  The harming ones were the ones that started my OCD. My god, that was a horrible time in my life.  Oh, I work at a doctors office, which I love.  I then get nervous that when I am going thru all this panic, I will have to be admitted to the hospital and my doctors will find out (as I'm also their patient).  I joined healingwell 7 years ago when my disorder first hit, so I do appreciate the help and generousity people give.  If you've never lived this, you truly can't understand. Thanks for listening.
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