I went to the GP today cuz I just knew that my BP was high. He took it and said it was really GOOD! I was like shocked! All day long my head has felt like it was going to bust open, so I guess I've carried a tension headache around, rather than a high BP headache today. What I don't get is this: My BP is ALWAYS high when I check it at the store and was high after I had to deal with the shrink from he** the other day....go figure! Anyhow, the GP went ahead and upped my Lisinopril from 10mg to 20mg, which is still a low dose.
Even right now I feel kind of woozy. I've been pretty sleep today also, which I had thought might've been related to my "high BP", but if my BP isn't high like the GP seems to believe, I guess it's just the tension getting the best of me! Sigh.
I used to take my xanax everyday until late last year when I found out that the shrinks at my MH clinic were going to be very tight with prescribing them. Now it's almost like I'm afaraid to take them again! I should've taken one today I suppose, but didn't. The anxiety was worser earlier in the day. I had it when I woke up and it lingered for a while, but wasn't so intense that I couldn't function. It just made everything seem harder to do. I feel absolutely exhausted and have felt that way all day, even though I didn't do much really.
I must sound totally weird with this post...I'm rambling, aren't I? I guess I just needed to tell someone about
how my day's been...share some words with my kindred spirits. I can't say much to mom as she can't handle me being anxy very well. She just acts all aggravated and/or martyrish for having to put up with me. So I try not to say much to her about
how intensely I feel sometimes. Thanks for letting me tell YOU.
Today is here
And soon will be gone.
Use it wisely
Before it's too late
Remember to love
And forget to hate.