When I first started Klonopin treatment I was amazed at how well it worked. I certainly never felt guilty about
it, but I did worry that it was too good to be true. I guess in some ways it was...I've sort of leveled out in some ways and perhaps have even regressed a little due some of the things going on in my life right now. The pill alone will not fix everything (but I'm sure you're aware of that).
Once you put together a few more days in a row, you'll stop worrying about
the panic attacks so much. Now, those were horrible experiences and you're going to remember them for a while, but at some point you'll develop faith that they're not going to start up again.
Last night, for example, I had a pretty bad night of stomach trouble and sky high anxiety. If there was ever a time to get a panic attack, that WOULD have been it. But it still didn't happen! So even though I had a really bad night last night, I can take some positives from it: if a panic attack didn't happen then, there's nothing on this Earth that would cause one probably. They're a part of my PAST. I'm disappointed that the anxiety has rebounded, but realistically I can't expect it to go away with the things I'm dealing with right now, so I generally take it in stride. Once I'm settled again and am closer to my friends and family, I have faith the anxiety will go away. Just have to be patient.
Soon, you'll get there too. It just doesn't happen right away, that's all.
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