I saw my pdoc yesterday and he listened to me about what happened and he's going to drop my clonazepam by .25mg every 6 weeks. It may seem slow but it's the way I need it done.
He also asked my hubby who came along if he had questions, and hubby said it's like watching me go round and round in circles. The pdoc said that's the nature of the illness and that he was quite shocked that even when I'm at my worse I still function and get things done. He said he was pretty happy about that which was nice to hear.
We're now working on externalising when I get down or anxious. Rather then just say it's the meds or pms I have to look for another reason. Like last night I felt a bit down and realised that the weekend was coming up. Hubby is currently on holidays but normally I'm alone with the kids so that puts me in an anxious mood