Hey there angelwings,
I have had that feeling, when I am trying to go to sleep and start to panic about what is happening to me, will I have these episodes forever? I feel like I might as well be in an institution in a rocking chair as I am so afraid that I am losing my wits forever.
What worked for me was a lot of Ativan as well as my bedtime meds. I was maxed out on the Ativan.
I am happy to say I have weaned down my benzo and am aiming to be off regular dose and go to a "use when necessary"
I understand exactly what you are going through. I hope you will soon get better. If you need medication besides what your using, please see your physician.
Moderator Anxiety ~ Panic Disorders
Dx: Anxiety/Panic, Depression
"If you doubt you can accomplish something, then you can’t accomplish it. You have to have confidence in your ability, and then be tough enough to follow through.”