I hope you will be able to try some of these suggestions to decrease your anxiety now. OK?
First of all I do not believe that you have Cancer and I am sure that your Doctor will verify this.
I do believe that your anxiety level is rising because you are anticipating the worse to happen at the clinic. Now what is the worse that could happen..you cry, you need a minute to get yourself together. This happens to many people in fact I have done it. The Doctor walks into exam room and asks whats going on with you ? I burst into tears and usually say something like I am just crazy. Then he calmly starts talking to me wanting to know why I feel that way. Here is where you get to tell him or her what you have been going through.
Write down a few notes to take with you so you don't get home and go "shoot, I forgot to ask------"
After talking to you the Dr. will probably have you sit on exam table and do a brief exam and continue to ask more questions. He will listen to your lungs, and to your heart. He will look in your ears and your throat.
The nurse will probably already have done your BP, Pulse and temperature. It is a very painless exam.
Your scared, yes and that is normal, but now I would like you to try to stay in the moment. Don't anticipate what will happen or try to guess which dreaded disease you may have. Let that wait until your appointment.
Today enjoy what is happening, plan something fun and if your Drs. appointment pops into your head let it go on through and stay in the moment. Don't worry that you have to face the appointment today.
It is a waste of your energy and will just snowball out of control.
Can you trust that you will do fine? I believe in you and trust you will be just a normal clinic patient coming to see your physician for an exam and advice.
Gentle hugs to you and deep breaths..................(((((HUGS)))))))))
it would help if you paid less attention to your body, I dont know what the cause is but it may all be from stress, worry and anxiety
take a list of things to tell doc and questions to ask him
remember that valium relaxes the mind and the body
I know exactly what you are going through being the nutty hypochondriac that I am. Everyone is giving you good advice and I would suggest the same. It will be okay. I will pray for you and be thinking about you. Let us know what happens.
As Bob Marley would say...
Don't worry about a thing, cos every little thing gonna be alright!!!
I understand your feelings and fears. I was convinced (thanks to Google) that I had cancer and/or other terminal conditions and went to the doctor with a legal size piece of paper filled with my "symptoms". I had recently had a full physical and all blood work, x-rays, ekg, whatever was normal...good in fact. But, I was sure that they must have missed something. I was so anxietal when I went to the appt., that when the nurse checked my blood pressure, it was way high. My doctor gave me a piece of paper that explained all about anxiety and panic and it had a long list of "symptoms". Of course, it described me to a T. Once I began to truly believe THAT is what was wrong with me, I was able to begin a course or way of treating it. Medication really helped for me personally, but meditiation and prayer help keep my mind on positive things. I still "fight" the negative thoughts and fears that plague me, but I am more able (with the help of the meds and counseling) to kick those horrible thoughts out of my head. Awfulizing is my enemy, but I will fight it to the end. Goodness and happiness WILL WIN THE BATTLE. I'm sorry if I seem to have been babbling...I just really felt for you when I read your post and wanted to share. I believe that your appointment is going to be positive, you will find that you are HEALTHY and you will begin a road to recovery. Hang in there and I will be praying for you.
Good Vibes coming your way. Stay in the moment and just know you are going to do well.
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