Sorry that you are struggling right now. Sounds like there has been a ton of change for you, I know that can throw me for a bit and cause the anxiety to come back temporarily. I think both lyn and debaser are right about giving yourself a chance to get used to all the new things and you'll be just fine. Try not to tell yourself that the anxiety is coming back, that you don't want to lose your job, etc.,...nix the negative thoughts. Given the situation you are in right now, it seems perfectly normal for you to have some anxiety, so maybe try to see it that way...'it's okay to feel a bit more anxious right now since there are so many changes in my life, but once I get used to them it will ease up.' Just use your cbt, positive self talk, etc. and I really think you are going to be just fine. All my best to you!
You can do this, I know you can. Look at it as a experience and have fun. Laugh at yourself, like I do at myself.
I did not think I could do jury duty..........but I just got up every day. I gave myself extra time in the morning so I could take my time and not feel stressed getting ready and have time left over to sit here and talk to you wonderful members.
Than I would head out the door. To me I looked at it like going to school. For the time you spend with the group of people in your class you form a bond and when the time is up you all go your own way again. However, you take good memories with you.
Try my look people in the eye and say Hello routine. Pretty soon they will be chatting with you. They won't be able to resist a warm smile. You can bet there are others in the training just as anxious as you.
Special hugs ((((((((((((Bear)))))))))))))
I made it through the first week... it was very tiring and stressful, one down 11 to go. Next week we start all the technical stuff... that should be even more stressful. We're down to 38 trainees and it looks like most will be staying around. I'm feeling out of place again (another one of my "issues")... most of the trainees are really young... I'm not. A lot of them talk about "partying" all the time. We're studying medicare, and I'm really the only one who is close to that age. I felt like I didn't really "fit in" at lunch yesterday... and in class we split up into groups, and nobody wanted to hear my ideas in one of the groups... sometimes I wonder if I'm a bit paranoid, or if nobody likes me, or if I just rub people the wrong way. I'm very friendly, but it still seems like nobody wants to talk to me. Also, my class has a guy who was hired to be the head of all the supervisors, and he walks around with a clipboard all day writing peoples names down for being late back from break, etc. He's giving EVERYONE stress! My last project had LOTS of older people, and I had lots of friends (or at least aquaintances) to talk to. I've run into a lot of those people in the halls and I'm so comfortable with them... we ask each other about our new projects, and I get GENUINE smiles and conversations with them. Basically, I'm not really good with change, and this is a big change. Well, I'm thankful it's the weekend and I get a couple of days to relax. Thanks for letting me rant...
Thank you so much Mom4 and Janetlee for the encouragement and the hugs (I needed that!). I'm dreading this morning and sure hope I can keep up today... YIKES! It's so great to have friends here!
I am so sorry that this is a struggle for you but I believe in you.
When you go to class just walk slow, take nice easy breaths and tell your self over and over "I can do this" like a mantra.
In class just listen, take notes occasionally or highlight text....but mostly listen. Shut out the noise around you.
It does not matter what others are talking about at lunch, and don't assume it is you. Your probably not the topic as most people talk about themselves and what is going on with them.
You have all of your A & P famly here cheering you on and you will make it. Just try to stay in the moment and not let worry distract you. You are the best so you go girl . ((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))