I've been trying to cope with the stress and all that. It has been tough and I've been crying a lot at home. But yesterday, I broke into tears at school. In the past, if I have the urge to cry in school, I'd hold back the tears. But yesterday, I couldn't control. I didn't know what happened. But I knew I was annoyed during English lesson before Physics cause I couldn't multi-task -- listen to the teacher and copy notes. After that, I thought I was better. But Physics drove me nuts. I stared at the workbook and had one of the worst mind blanks I ever experienced. I read the question repeatedly, not absorbing anything, even after I reminded myself to concentrate. I basically couldn't concentrate. Then I noticed my vision blurred by tears which I managed to hold back. I talked to my friend for awhile about how difficult is it for me to concentrate at that moment, then I turned back to try to do it. I couldn't. I decided to tell my teacher to allow me not to hand up my work by the end of the day as I couldn't concentrate. He allowed and asked me to read the passage and don't do anymore of those calculations in Physics.
I could feel the tears coming as I talked to him. Once he walked away, I cried, just like that, uncontrollably. Before that I was have abdominal pains and slight headache. Then I laughed at the same time. It was awful. I felt really tight at my chest too, breathless and all. Just hate it. After I washed up, my friend tried to cheer me up with a balloon with a smiley face on it. Then I cried even more.
I just don't understand this whole thing. I know I am extremely high on stress. But what's with the crying and laughing at the same time? I thought I was mentally unstable.
And lately, I've been craving for food. When I have nothing to do, I think of food. I feel very hungry and just wish to gobble down lots of food. Is there any way that I can stop this? It's wasting my money buying food and it is causing me to gain weight.
Hope to get some advice. Thanks a bunch people! ((:
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