I joined this community for another problem but I just thought I would look at this topic (Panic Disorders) because I have some experience with it. I am 70 now and have not had a panic attack since I was 28 but I can sympathize with the progression you describe. I can not tell you how to deal with your problem. All I can do is give a testimony of what happened to me. I started having panic attacks when I was 15. I was afraid I was going to die. At that time there were no drugs for panic or any other emotional problem. I won't go into the details but I somehow managed to work thru the worst of it by the time I graduated from high school and settled into a state of heightened anxiety but not outright panic. As time went on I felt almost normal although I had some severe emotional problems like I was 25 and had never been on a date. I had however managed to do well at college and had a Masters in Engineering and was working on a Doctorate. Without any warning the panic attacks returned and this time I was afraid I was going crazy. The next three years were hell. I had severe agoraphobia and panic. Although I though of myself as a Christian I knew I had a problem with my belief and I read a lot on religion. C.S.Lewis and others. In Nov of 1965 I managed to drag myself out one evening to an organ recital. The last piece on the program was Bach's triple fugue on St Anne. In the middle of the piece everything I had been reading suddenly made sense and I truly became a Christian. I would use the term Born Again but that seems to bother a lot of people. All I can say is my agoraphobia and panic were gone. A few months later I started dating and about a year later met the women to whom I have been married for 40 years. I am writing this just to say that your life can change suddenly and dramatically so don't give up hope.
StBarney (Our late Cocker Spaniel)