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TammyGrl0528
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   Posted 8/7/2007 3:42 PM (GMT -7)   
Hey all.  It has been a while since my last post, and the reason is I have been too busy, and anxious to even come online and do a post.  The past week or so has been pure horrible for me.  And, it seems to only be getting worse.  Maybe I am looking for some advice on what the heck to do.
 
I pretty much went all of July with no Xanax at all, and I was so starting to feel like the old me.  IT was great.  In the past couple days here, I am back to how I was before the Lexapro.  Maybe it is the stress of Mom, or maybe my tooth, or maybe, who knows what.  I had a panic attack last night while helping my Mom with the bleeding wound.  It took me over 2 and a half hours, finally I called 911 cuz I couldn't get the bleeding to stop.  In the middle of dealing wtih that, I had a panic attack, and took .5 mg of Xanax...normally I take .25 but I was VERY anxious.  It was horrible.  Finally, around midnight, she was out of the hospital and back home.  I went home then, and wanted to sleep, but couldn't because of my tooth.  No, I haven't gotten that dealt with since my anxiety is so flared up, I can't even bare to make an appointment with the dentist without freaking out.  UGH.  So, I have been dealing wiht that pain for nearly a week.
 
Then, this morning, got up, and I was sweating, and my heart was racing, I was in for another full blown panic attack.  I took more Xanax, and was able to calm down within the hour.  Now, the thing is, I have been so lazy all day.  ANyone else need a lot of sleep the day after a panic attack?  I am normally wrecked the whole next day after the attack.  Curious if anyone else deals with taht too.
 
Dad found a new doctor to take Mom to about this wound.  Someone who specializes in this kind of thing.  Her appointment is Thursday mroning.  I pray to God that there is something he can and will do to put a stop to all this bleeding.  I think that is a lot of my problem. 
 
SO, I sit here with anxiety and panic issues and a toothache.  All of which suck bad.  I am tired both mentally and physically.  My chest feels tight, and has felt tight for a few days now, along with most of my other muscles in my body.  I feel like the Lexapro isn't working.  I feel like I am holding on by a thread, mind you, this thread is about to tear.  I am stressed, and starting to feel sad, frustrated, and angry all at the same time.
 
Well, my family, I feel like I have vented enough for today.  I appriciate all of you who read this, and I appriciate all of you who take the time to respond.
 
I hope everyone is having a good day!!!
Dealing with panic and anxiety for 8 years off and on...right now more on than off.  Major health anxiety as well!
 
New found issues with agoraphobia...working on that too.
 
I am NOT weak, I am just down right now.  I am doing what it takes to get my life back!!!
 
Best Wishes to all...Tammy


debaser
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   Posted 8/7/2007 4:35 PM (GMT -7)   
The sleepiness after an intense panic attack is common, I've read, and I've experienced it first hand, too. In your case it could also be the Xanax. Drowsiness is a side-effect and since you'd been off it for a while that may be part of it, too.

Have you ever considered writing a blog? I've found it to be pretty therapeutic.
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jerseycherries
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   Posted 8/7/2007 5:51 PM (GMT -7)   
i'm so sorry things are going so bad for you right now. hopefully the new doc will be able to help get your mom better. and you really should do something about your tooth. i understand how hard it is to do it, but being in pain all the time is not helping. i know how hard it is to do something about it and i'm not trying to lecture you. i just think getting rid of the pain will help some. and maybe telling your doc about how bad your feeling is needed also. i really wish there was more i could do or offer you. please know your in my thoughts and prayers. i truely hope things get better soon.
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Junebug05
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   Posted 8/7/2007 5:52 PM (GMT -7)   

Tammy,

I am so, so sorry that things are so tough for you right now.   How I wish there was more that I could do for you.  The amount of stress you are dealing with is just off the charts, and you just keep hanging in there, I am amazed by you!  I'm hoping that this new doctor will be the one to help your mom and that then your stress will go down some and with it your anxiety.  I know how horrible it is to go through panic attacks, and yes, I do get very, very tired afterwards and most times it will last well into the next day.   The needing alot of sleep could be the panic attacks, the xanax or the amount of stress and lack of sleep lately you've had lately.  Use your xanax as you need it right now so you don't slip back into a bad place again.   I really hope that things will get better for you!  Try to keep posting, you need the support and love right now! 


TammyGrl0528
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   Posted 8/7/2007 7:08 PM (GMT -7)   
First of all, thank you DEBASER for your input. I feel confident hearing that you have read and even experienced the heavy sleeping, or need to sleep after an intense panic attack. Unfortunetly, both last night and this morning were intense panic attacks. I have never thought of writing a blog, no, but I do keep a journal. Actually, I am 26 years old, and I still have a "diary" from when I was like 12. Yea, funny huh?

JERSEY, I never felt as if you were lecturing me about the dentist. I seriously know I need to go, and that relieving that pain may very well reduce my stress and anxiety. I am pretty sure I will be in the dentists chair Thursday, unless, of course, I chicken out. I hope I don't though. Thank you for your ongoing support. Love ya bunches!

JUNEBUG, I too hope this new guy will help my Mom. I know that would help me to feel so much better, not to mention her, of course, and my Dad, who is also stressing out pretty badly. Keep in mind, he too has anxiety issues. Pretty sure he gave them to me, along with his good looks. LOL. And yes, I have been missing out on sleep lately as a combination of my Mom and my tooth. So, that could be part of it, along with the Xanax, and the 2 panic attacks in the 2 days. UGH. I am so exhausted!

My plan now is to take my meds, have John rub my back, and pray to God that I can drift off to sleep. I neeed a good night sleep. I pray I get one.

Thank you everyone for the ongoing support. Love ya all!
Dealing with panic and anxiety for 8 years off and on...right now more on than off.  Major health anxiety as well!
 
New found issues with agoraphobia...working on that too.
 
I am NOT weak, I am just down right now.  I am doing what it takes to get my life back!!!
 
Best Wishes to all...Tammy


Howlyncat
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   Posted 8/8/2007 3:42 AM (GMT -7)   
Tammy'

I too am totally exhausted after a major panic attack or full blown one and a crohns flare or any other health issues I ahve
It is normal I believe as well to be totally and completely washed out ....no energy no want to do anything I dont even eat.......I sit and watch the tv w/o seeing a thing and hours go by I have had times where I have literally slept for a couple of days or more after a big one and only gotten up to wash face change PJ's and go potty

YOU have been under extreme stress and I still think you are doing a bang up job dealing with it

Your mom is a big worry naturally as is my dad ........when mom was alive I swear I couldnt sleep for fear of phone ringing and her needing me

To me hun you are going thru all this stress and it has finally caught up with you and your body just gives out it is NORMAL for anyone under alot less stress than u I think as well too but thats my opinion on that one in particuliar............
I have had that happen way to many times to count or when depressed all I was doing was sleeping same as with some TX all I can do is sleep

I am so sorry you are going thru this yet I know you are not alone in this at all ......we are all here for you
Come vent when you get the energy my friend and I am keeping you and your family in my heat thoughts and prayers

Please keep your mom progress posted as well as yours we really do care

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TammyGrl0528
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   Posted 8/8/2007 9:42 AM (GMT -7)   
Thanks a million Lyn. As always, your words of encouragement help make me feel better. I feel poorly again today. I slept til noon. I guess I needed all that sleep, or I wouldn't have done it, eh? I am still tired though. That isn't fun. I am tired of being tired. LOL.

Mom didn't bleed last night. Thank God. She called me during our huge storm to come shut a window, but that's about it. No bleeding. That is great. A night with no bleeding is a good night for me. I took some Tylenol PM before bed, and slept pretty much through the night for the first time in a long time.

Well, John is going to be calling from work...it his his lunch time now. I will update soon.

Thanks to everyone who is helping me through this.

Lots of love!
Dealing with panic and anxiety for 8 years off and on...right now more on than off.  Major health anxiety as well!
 
New found issues with agoraphobia...working on that too.
 
I am NOT weak, I am just down right now.  I am doing what it takes to get my life back!!!
 
Best Wishes to all...Tammy


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   Posted 8/8/2007 10:17 AM (GMT -7)   

Dear Tammy

Hugs to my sweet lady.  You know I used to sleep on the way home from therapy as I would get exhausted just from the anxiety of going over my childhood and no I was not the driver :)

In my mind you have every right to be anxious and the panic attacks are debillitating for sure, so use the Xanax and throw out the guilt for taking them. Nap when you want to there is no rule on taking naps. Your body will guide you in helping you take care of yourself so listen to your instincts...........nap and drink lots of fluids. 

You have a right to be upset…………..reach out and take our hands, we will be beside you always.

My prayers for you and your Mom.  Did you notice I did not mention the tooth? You can do it tommorow...........so get to it sweetie.

Love ya


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TammyGrl0528
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   Posted 8/8/2007 10:21 AM (GMT -7)   
Kitt, thanks a million for your kind words. Your words are also always most comforting!!! I am actually preparing to take a nice shower, and a nap now. I take like 2 or 3 showers a day anymore. They seem to relax me. So, that is my plan for right now. I will check in later.

Love ya!!
Dealing with panic and anxiety for 8 years off and on...right now more on than off.  Major health anxiety as well!
 
New found issues with agoraphobia...working on that too.
 
I am NOT weak, I am just down right now.  I am doing what it takes to get my life back!!!
 
Best Wishes to all...Tammy


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   Posted 8/8/2007 5:01 PM (GMT -7)   
Oh honey, wish I could give you a great big hug!
 
After a panic attack I am completely drained.  It is perfectly normal to feel that way.
 
After my Mom had bypass surgery, her wound would not heal.  She kept drainning and bleeding from it.  Doc's kept saying there was nothing they could do.  I understand the frustration you are feeling.  Getting a 2nd opinion is a wonderful idea.  I pray this doctor will be able to help your Mom not only for her but for you as well!
 
Your a wonderful caring person who loves her Mom very much.
 
Let us know how everything goes.  Hang in there sweets were here for you!
 
Big Hugs
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TammyGrl0528
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   Posted 8/8/2007 5:14 PM (GMT -7)   
Awww, thanks Mary. I wish you could give me a great big hug, gosh, I could really use one. Lets pretend like you just did. Ha ha.

I am comforted by hearing so many of you express how drained you are after big panic attacks. It feels good that something on me is, "normal" ha ha.

I look forward to the 2nd opinion we will be getting tomorrow. It feels like my last chance for relief from this wound. AHHHH.

Thanks for the hugs and the support Mary, and everyone.

Love ya all!
Dealing with panic and anxiety for 8 years off and on...right now more on than off.  Major health anxiety as well!
 
New found issues with agoraphobia...working on that too.
 
I am NOT weak, I am just down right now.  I am doing what it takes to get my life back!!!
 
Best Wishes to all...Tammy


nicholesmom
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   Posted 8/10/2007 5:29 PM (GMT -7)   
sorry to hear that your having such a bad week. ive been dealing with anxiety,ptsd and depression for a long time and know what your going through. i recently have been having trouble with my breasts too and don't know what to do until i find out from the dr. what to do. i have a good support system. my daughter,husband and the rest of my family. i havent been on this site in a while i don't go on much. but i hope to hear from you real soon.
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