hey.. sorry for taking so long to respond everyone..
my ma got sick ... her heart valve failed and had congestive heart failure but she had surgery and now she is doing SO much better so I've been really out of sorts. She's coming home Sunday to my dad's house.
She's going to need a LOT of extra care.
Meanwhile my panic has been thru the roof worrying about her... especially the first day when I was so panicky in the hospital from everything and not knowing what was wrong that i had to take an extra Lorazepam/Ativan.
Other than that... the panic is good... but my OCD with the idea of people trying to kill me is awful.. . I'm wondering if it's because I bought this book called the "serial killer files" and it talks about all the awful ways all sorts of people were murdered. Half the time I'm wondering if someone is going to poison me or if my boyfriend wants to kill me.
I think that book needs to go in the garbage immediately. lol
I am doing well with stores. I go into Target on one ativan/lorazepam now and forget I even have panic disorder.... which is WONDERFUL cuz then I can think clearly about all the things I have to buy.
I'm having a problem with malls still of course... and slightly still with restaurants... but it's step by step... and a day at a time..
All things appear frightening in the beginning of recovery from Panic Disorder... but with true effort only success can prevail.
Take care all.... *HUGS*
P.S. Those symptoms have subsided... now I have food poisoning... YAAAAAY diarrhea lol
"Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars."
DX: Panic Disorder, Depression, TMJ (Temporomandibular Joint Disorder), Chronic Migraines
RX: Lorazepam (1 MG a day), Lexapro (20 MG a day), Tylonel for the TMJ and Migraines