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Lilli20
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Date Joined Aug 2007
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   Posted 8/30/2007 3:40 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi everyone,
 
Well, I am ready to go back on meds for my anxiety...I had a really bad anxiety attack on the way to work yesterday, and it affected me all day. I hate the thought of being on meds, I really, really do not want to be on anything....but I don't know what else to do anymore. I have been off meds for about 9mos and feel like I'm losing it all of the time practically! Just typing this makes me want to cry. I recently started Topamax, for migraines and it is also supposed to be a mood stabilizer, so I did not want to add to the mix. I am stopping the topamax d/t the potential memory loss, etc. As a NICU nurse I cannot have that happenning. No way. It terrifies me to think of spacing out while at work and "missing" something on my pt or not doing something correctly....I even felt "spacey" yesterday and I don't know if it was the topamax or the panic attack. I have a constant level of anxiety, so who knows anymore.
Anyway....2 things.....:
Has anyone been on Cymbalta for anxiety? Success?  Problems? Weight gain? Thoughts?
 
And...any support is welcomed...I do not have anyone to talk to, I am trying to find a new therapist, just going to therapy terrifies me.
Thanks everyone, hope to hear from you soon. :-)

Junebug05
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   Posted 8/30/2007 4:43 PM (GMT -7)   

Lilli,

I'm sorry that you are struggling right now.  Setbacks can be so awful.  I've never taken cymbalta, so I can't help you there, I just wanted you to know you are not alone, and that I've had many, many setbacks over the years and the hope that I always hold onto is that they are temporary, they always pass in time.  Yours will too.  I understand your aversion to  meds, but sometimes it's the best course for a while, at least until you get things under control again.  Why do you fear therapy?  Just curious, I've always found it to be comforting and very helpful.  Keep coming here and posting, there are so many amazing people here who will be happy to give you information on cymbalta and support you as you move forward! 


Lilli20
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Date Joined Aug 2007
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   Posted 8/30/2007 5:23 PM (GMT -7)   
JuneBug, Thank you so much for your reply. I have dealt w/anxiety my whole life....d/t childhood traumas. I don't like counselling because I have not yet had a good experience w/it and w/finding a good counselor. I'm hoping to find someone I feel comfortable with who can help w/my issues.
I don't quite "get" it though....I know why I have anxiety....I don't know how re-hashing old pain and trauma is going to help rid me of anxiety today. And I do try all the relaxation and behavior modification techniques they employ....but who knows, maybe that will be the key with finding the "right" person to talk to.
Again, thanks for your support.

Tat2me
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   Posted 8/30/2007 7:14 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Lilli,
I have never taken cymbalta either. But I do know somewhat how you feel about meds and needing more. I was doing fine for a few years and I just snapped. Now I'm on 2 more. I also have a problem with opening up to someone I don't know but, we all need help sometimes whether it be from a friend or a total stranger. I hope you are able to find someone you are comfortable with and can trust.
Life has it's ups and downs. Don't stop on the downs and you'll have what it takes to make it up.   - Me


Danxiety
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   Posted 8/30/2007 10:30 PM (GMT -7)   
yeah, I can relate to the therapy being terrifying feeling, for sure. For me it hits on a few levels. One is the fear of what they might tell me about myself that i don't want to face or scared to. The other is that they will misdiagnose me and put me on meds that I dont want to be on in the first place. But i have found someone i feel i can trust. I too went off all medication and after just a short time had a horrible relapse of panic. It got so bad that the doctor i trusted suggest that i check into an out patient program for daily therapy. The sound of that horrified me. I was like " Am i that bad? Did i really get to a point where i have to go to a hospital?" After LOTs of talks one day, i finally went to this place my trusted therapist referred me to. She told me " Dan, i would go there in a minute. I would have recommend my closest friends, family, anyone in crisis to go there". I went. It was the best thing I've ever really done for my mental health. Anyways, I guess its hard, but finding someone you trust is pretty amazing. Finding a therapist you bond with and trust is amazing. From the experience I've had, even the psychiatrist at the hospital, they've always want to find the minimal dose of medication to stabilize me. That is the only reason I went back on medication, is because i was in crisis and i trust these people.

So, i hope you can find that. I mean, writing on here is great. The community here is one of a kind. But, if you can try and find a therapist you can trust. One that doesnt want to just throw you on medications, but really figure out what sets you off, and works to target specific thought patterns and triggering events. I'm envious that you were able to be off medication for 9 months! Maybe you just need a little something, and that might be CBT therapy, and a super light dose of something... Or not.

Anyways, best of luck. Hang in there and keep writing!

best_
Dan
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Anxiety and Panic Disorder.

"Breathe! You Are Alive"
- Thich Nhat Hanh


stkitt
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   Posted 8/31/2007 6:46 AM (GMT -7)   

Good Morning,

First of all I hope that your dc  of Topamax is under the physician's weaning guidelines.

I take Cymbalta and just dropped from 60 mg BID to 90 mg per day. I felt the 120mg per dose was to high and my Pdoc was ok with cutting back.  I found weight gain to be a problem like most of the ADs. At the 90 mg per day I feel much better. I use it for Depression and anxiety.

Give it a chance as it took a good 4 weeks but I feel right now it is working well.

Take care and keep posting.  Your family here with us. :)


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Lilli20
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Date Joined Aug 2007
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   Posted 8/31/2007 9:10 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks so much everyone for all the replies. Yes, it is nice to have a nice, safe, anonymous place to come to and post your questions, fears, etc. And I know I need, plus, I really do want, to find a therapist I "click" with. That is definitely a priority! :)
I am weaning off of Topamax per my MD's orders and I see her in about a week to discuss my medication "options".
I am hoping I don't need to be on meds for very long....I don't know why it bothers me, other than the possibility of side effectcs, etc, but I've just never been one to take meds, long term anyway. Medically speaking, other than migraines, I haven't had any physical issues. I feel a certain "stigma" I guess associated w/the anti-anxiety/depression meds. I know it's silly, and I know they help a lot of people. I just want to mentally, feel better, and if I need the meds, I need the meds!
Well, you all have a great Labor Day W/E! And, thanks again for your help! :)
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