Lots of hugs coming your way. You come here and vent whenever you need. We do understand and we support you. You will get better..........I am proof of that as are others.
Don't ever give up on you as we won't.
Sorry that you are having a hard time. I've been and am currently where you are right now, with the not being able to get out much. But, I've also been to the other side, being able to go wherever and whenever I wanted, although not alone. You will get there, it takes time and is hard to do, but you will make it. I understand the wanting to give up too, but believe me, that's not much better. When you choose to give up, you are left to deal with dissapointment and guilt and the feeling that your life is slipping away, guess it's obvious I've been there too! Keep taking baby steps, I know it's hard, I know how extremely painful it can be to keep trying, but it's the way to freedom. I believe in you wen, you can do this! Let me know if there is anything I can do to help...maybe working together will make it easier for us!
I find that I exclude myself from a lot of activities that my husband and children do. It's hard to feel like you are missing that and not being a part of your own family. Sometimes I'll say that I will go with them but when the time comes I freeze up and just can't do it. At times my husband insists that I go with them and I have never had anything terrible happen when I do, but I'm not able to relax and enjoy the time. I do get out of the house often, though, and am trying to make sure that my world doesn't get too small.