You posted on 9/7 and members responded. Please review that post. Also I do not think we have the answer to your question "does anyone know if i can ask my doctor to write me a note that I may have a disability that needs treated and take it down to DSHS for some medical to fix this?" This would be for your Dr. to decide. Here are your other posts for your review. :)
Rereading your posts, alot of your concerns are about drinking and having fun. I still feel you need to talk to your Mother re your problems as you say she is your best friend, than use her as it is a waste not to. This is my humble opinion.
Bless you and take care.
I know this sounds trite but I really feel therapy would be good for you. There are places that will help you, can you contact a local mental health department to see what might be available.
I have the info for the online free CBT program if you cannot find any other help. So please let me know if you would like it. OK?
Hang in there sweetie, there is always a way. Gentle Hugs