The above post is a great example of an inappropriate use of emotive language.
I'm sorry that you feel that way, Tat, and even though I'm not very fond of censorship myself I can appreciate that rule. I read your unedited post this morning. There were other ways you could have talked about
that...most of us are adults and know what you would have meant. You painted a very vivid picture.
Nonetheless, I hope you get the help you need today at your doctor's office. I would suspect that while you may have an anxiety problem, your predominant disorder may actually be depression. The types of things you describe, unfortunately, are typical in depressed people (especially teens but others, as well). The "verbally violent" outburst also screams depression to me. I'm not a doctor or anything, but I've seen and experienced a lot. I really do think you need a good psychiatrist to figure out exactly where you are and how to proceed from there.
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