You pretty much nailed the way mornings are for me! It is a symptom of the AP. I can even tell that I am pretty anxious all night. I wake up alot and just to turn over and fall asleep. My pdoc told me that it has to do with the anxiety just being right under the surface. Even thought we sleep we still play the anxious games in our mind. It also means were never getting into good deep sleeps. Of course that just makes you tired and anxious throught the day. Its a vicous cycle.
My anxiety right now centers around work. I know it will get better soon, as I am looking for a new job and have had some interviews. Ive got to fly from Raleigh to Ohio on Tuesday for a 2nd interview with the company executives. I hate interviews, but I know its necessary to help out my situation. I feel good about this one, because the local interview went well especally considering they are wanting to fly me up to meet they big cheeses. I am sure I will be anxious as hell until its over. But I think this was the perfect week for the advice my pdoc gave. He said: "Your current job is a situation you cant control. So concentrate on the things you can. Like interviewing and reviewing your options".
Anyway I know the morning jitters! The options are: medicate, learn the coping mechanisms to deal with ap, and remove the thing causing you the anxiety. Easy right!!! Thats why were all here, trying to do those things. The best advice I can give you is believe in yourself! You can make things better over time! We all have it in use to learn to control the a/p!
I am the same way. I actually dread going to bed, even though I was so exhausted all day long, because I know I will feel so bad when I wake up. The less sleep I get the worse it is usually. But, if I had to get enough sleep to wake up feeling good I would never wake up! I don't take medication or anything, but I try to motivate myself. I feel horrible before opening my eyes. Evern after I have gotten up. When I get up I turn on all the lights. Light stimulates the brain to get moving. Then, I turn the radio on to some music I enjoy. It helps to keep my mind from wondering. I always try not to think about everything I have to do that day because that wil make me sick. I try to take it one thing at a time. If my mind starts to slip and wonder, I try thinking about something good that happened the day before or week, etc. I always some anxiety no matter what I do to keep it away, but those are things I do to try to keep it low.
Maybe you can try it. I get up at 6:20 every morning for school. So, I know al about getting up early. I get up the same time everyday and go to sleep the same time as well. This keeps my body in a routine and it helps a lot with my anxiety. Getting enough sleep makes a huge difference too. Even an hour can make a HUGE impact on how I feel one day.
So, make sure you get enough sleep. And maybe try some things that will get you in a happy mood like listening to music or something. Just something that wakes up and gets your mind on something. I know if I had to wake up and do house work my mind would probably wonder. Try doing something you enjoy first thing. It helps me.
Anyways, I hope this helps. Good luck and take care!
HaHa. It is possible! I get that alot! That's good that you go to bed the same time. I never did that before. But, since school has started back I put myself on a schedule to go to bed and wake up the same time. I did good the first few weeks. But, then I realized I wasn't feeling so horrible in the morning and thought 'maybe I can go to bed just a little later'. BIg mistake! Going to bed even an hour later than I started with made me feel so horrible the next day. Just an hour make a world of difference in how I feel! Thats amazing!
As for the house cleaning. If I could get up and do housework instead of go to school, I would choose housecleaning any day!! My mom complains about having to do housework all day, but I would switch places with her anyday! She can go to school and handle that if she wants. I hate it! I actually enjoy cleaning. I get in this mood a lot where I clean everything!! I change my room around at least once a month. My stuff has been on every wall in every different way, but I have never put everything in the same place twice! I get bored with it being the same way! I change stuff around ALOT! Its crazy, but I can't help it!
Anyways, I am ranting, sorry! I hope you are feeling better today...and take care!
** BTW.......dont 4get to post and let us know how it went with PDOC k
Post Edited (Howlyncat) : 9/22/2007 4:36:46 PM (GMT-6)
Tammy, good luck today, I'll be thinking about you, so please let us know how it went when you can!
about the mornings...hating them right now. I go through phases where they are just horrible and then they will let up and I won't have a problem. Right now they stink! Anxiety has been a little higher last few weeks, so I've resensitized my nerves yet again. Today is particularly bad as I was up most of the night with my dog who wasn't feeling well. Being outside at 3 am is not where I like to be! Hoping to get a little extra sleep today after my daughter leaves. For me, mornings are a time when I feel more vulnerable, like I can't get my cbt and positives going fast enough and I feel jittery and shake a bit. Thankfully it doesn't last too long, but long enough when I'm uncomfortable. Thanks for posting this topic Tammy, it seems to be a big problem for alot of people!
Again, Best to you today.