A slip of the foot you may soon recover, but a slip of the tongue you may never get over.
I am so sorry that this has happened, but you are not a loser and you will never be a loser.
You cannot work when your sick and it is not your fault that you have this illness.
Please keep posting here and we will support you and give you help to the best of our ability.
You are family here so gentle hugs to you. ((((((((HUGS))))))))