I suffer from a generalized type of anxiety and I take anxiety calmative medication when I feel anxious and on edge.
As with most anxiety sufferers it starts somewhere. I had an incident at a restaurant at night in the City with my older sister as we were about to go to a concert and were having dinner beforehand. I all of a sudden started feeling sick as I was finishing my meal (I had driven that night). I got cramps, dizzy, crying, really bad panic attack, it was my official one.
I had to go to the hospital (ambos didnt think it was necessary but I was severely hyperventialting). Tests were done, nothing was wrong with me.....I was just suffering a severe attack.
So now I am sure you can understand why since that night (Feb 22 nd 2007) have never eaten out at a restaurant etc avoiding all sorts of dinners and socialising. (I didn't eat or drink anything in july at my 21st bday even!). Even when taking my medication (not often) I am on edge at differnet times when I'm outdoor in public (everyday is different).
Now for the good news...saturday I had a wedding and was worried about attending even weeks before due to anixety and I knew I wouldn't be eating
The day before the wedding I was given some good advice from a wise old friend who believes in tarots, spirits, and all hippy stuff. She said to me to say the following three times
"To my Guardian Angels, I pray for the most benevolent outcome for my anxiety and may it be more than I can expect or anticipate".
So as I was waiting for my partner in the parking lot on the night of the wedding, I said to myself "Please angels take care of me and help me overcome this fear and anxiety, I know this is a figment of my imagination and it can not control me, I will eat tonight and dance and will have a great night, I control my mind, it does not control me!"
That night for the fist time in 7 months, I ate out at a restaurant, danced, laughed and for the most part forgot that my anixety existed. I forced it to disappear atleast for that night and that is because I was persistent. I know now that I can and will beat this, I only hope you all can do the same, you must believe in yourself for it to happen and although I still am getting through other instances of anxiety I know I am proud of myself for taking the next step and so can you!
Hope my story didnt bore you and has helped.