A slip of the foot you may soon recover,
but a slip of the tongue you may never get over.
I am glad you made it through the trip but your family was not on the same page as you.
You may try a couple of things next time. Frist talk to them ahead of time and explain that you want to make the trip and that you feel if they would support you and stay within the time frame then you will all go together. Ask them to check with you and see if your alright and if you feel great and up to spending a little more time then make a new deadline for what time to be at the check out counter.
If this is not something they can do, try going alone and just time yourself. Do your 15 minutes, stroll slowly through the store to keep you adrenaline down and leave at the goal time. If you find you really cannot do it, then leave but no beating yourself up.
You are a work in progress and remember it is baby steps hun. You are doing great. Give yourself credit for every little thing you do. We are here for you and you can count on us.
Keep on putting one step in front of the other.
Post Edited (wen4003) : 10/14/2007 10:15:48 AM (GMT-6)
I understand how difficult it is to understand what is happening in our lives when we are thrown into a tailspin and we want it to just end. I know for myself when I was at the depths of the anxiety and depression I was disgusted with myself for being so weak and could not except that it kept hanging on. But I finally learned to try to stay in the moment. I fianlly learned to quit beating myself up and accept that I was not a loser but that I had a lot of hard work and I could do it. I wanted to get better. It is all about the need inside of us to conquer the disorder. :)
Do not worry about how it used to be, that is the past, You cannot change it. Do not worry about what might happen, when tommorow gets here you will deal with it. Try to stay in the moment today.
Great choice to skip Walmart today.........now your right on.
Thank you so much, Wen. I am always willing to share my story. It took me over a year to get so I was comfortable in going out again and I still have times when I want to pull back and hide out, no stress here in my puter room.
But I have even managed to take a part time job and there are days when I questions why, but I know that I cannot hide out and the extra cash lets me go on a vacation.
I will miss all of you.................stay in the moment while I am gone.
Another way I put that is "be where your butt is" So mine will be on a plane and that is where my thoughts will be too.
Hugs galore. Luv ya hun! Take care.