As a recovering alcoholic myself, i understand the panic and anxiety and scared feeling about attending an a.a meeting.
I myself havent been to a meeting as yet (dealing with my agoraphobia) but i have had phone contact with some members of a.a, and there a good group of people who understand just how you feel. And well done on your day of sobriety, i know just how hard that is, you've tackled a big hurdle already.
hope all goes well for you, and im here for you if you need to chat or vent. Take care, and take one day at a time.
I agree with Howly, You dont need to say anything at a meeting if you dont feel you can. That was a very big worry for me when i was first trying to attend, but the people i had talked to said that you should take it at your own pace, people are'nt there to push you in any way, and i was scared of that, i thought that i had to share my problem with other and even now im not sure i would be able to stnd up in front of strangers and admit that yes i'm a bad alcoholic and i need help.
I guess what im trying to say is, take your time with it, if you dont feel you can attend dont push yourself to go, Attending your first meeting is a big step and you need to be sure your ready for that, you can always talk on the phone to members, until you feel ready as i have, and sometimes still do.
I know it is hard, but your doing really well so far and im proud of you as is everyone.
keep up the great work.