Wow, nyliz, it was like you were describing me. I write sometimes. I havee to be in the mood for it. Otherwise I cant do it. I have alot of stuff I have written. Alot of people have told me I should write abook about my experiences and such but I couldnt do it. I couldn't concentrate enough to write a book. But, when I write its like I get sucked into. Everything disappears and I am inside the writing. Its a strange feeling when I am done, but I feel like its a huge load off. Maybe others will share there writings. I would love to see how others feel. Here's a little something I wrote the other day.
Thoughts race like roadrunner on a Saturday morning cartoon
Heart pounding through my chest like a wrecking ball through a concrete building
Air taken away as if I am a criminal
As faintness fills my mind and body
Reality diminishes before my eyes
Leaving me in an altered state
Worry, fear, anxiety are relentless
Overpowering in its march to take over
My strength is no match for its power
It quickly takes over leaving me behind
Standing paralyzed with fear
Not knowing how to precede
My body is no longer my own
Being controlled by an outsider
I will one day gain control and overtake my mind and body once more
I will build my strength and courage to be indestructable against any force
I will take myself over
I will conquer tha real me
I lose the battles now
But one day, one day I will become victorious
This will only exist in the past and within my own memories
Never again will it rule me.
Sorry its so long. I get carried away when I am in writing mode. Not sure what it all means, but I am sure I will figure it out. Its just how I felt at the time I guess. But, I want to ENCOURAGE others to post something they have written. I think it would be great if we could all join together and share our feelings through writing. It really does help alot, most of the time. So, I encourage others to give it a try! No one will be judgemental, the important thing is not how good you write or anything like that, the important thing is that you let your feelings out! Express Yourself! Have a great afternoon!!