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Howlyncat
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   Posted 10/22/2007 10:50 AM (GMT -7)   
 Cowboy had a great thread ......getting to long ...................so here i am asking that we continue to carry on as we have so many new people here in the "family" and would like to learn and know a lil more about each of you
 
If you dont feel comfy doing this thats fine too
 
I hope that most will participate........... yeah
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stkitt
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   Posted 10/22/2007 2:08 PM (GMT -7)   

Great Idea Sis,

For those that don't know me, I am Kitt and I found this wonderful site by accident, or perhaps the fates led me here.

The support is outstanding. I love to hear the success stories and to help people through the rough times.

I am an RN as well as a Fitness Instructor.  I have a great love for music, riding Harleys, and reading.

I am available by email if you feel you need to share something private so please know I am here for all of you as well as for myself.

I like to believe that I make the world a better place because I live and serve within it.

Oh yes, I love to laugh and to tease people.................so I will try hard not to rein in my funny bone.

Glad to meet you. :)


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Howlyncat
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   Posted 10/22/2007 4:50 PM (GMT -7)   
I am Lyn and like lil sis I too am avid Harley rider and lover

I found HW when I had just been DX with Crohns had no idea what I was in for .......
I was taken in by all in the CD forum supported educated and treated with care and respect

I also have another DD related to Crohns that is rare but I had found a couple ppl with it so I did feel better that I was not alone ..........

I have had a/p and bouts of depression since childhood and later in early 20's after losing my love of my life suddenly as well as a couple of yrs later my 6 yr old son..........

I too am a RN but worked in Geriatrics most of my career and still am looking after my dad ..........I lost Mom to Alzheimers in March of 2006

I decided to to go for a Moderator position as I wanted to at least TRY to give back some of what I had been given by all here

I enjoy being here and watching the ppl grow and learn to fight the fight against a/p and other DD

Any questions I will answer no problem .........my info is at the side as well ...........

I love being part of the HW " family" and growing with them thru these battles..........

REMEMBER..........WE have Anxiety and Panic
yeah
Anxiety and Panic does not have us ..............LYN


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TeNNiSd0C09
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   Posted 10/22/2007 5:27 PM (GMT -7)   

Well, I guess I could give this a try...
I guess I am probably one of the youngest on here ( I have met 1 or 2 younger I believe) at 16. I guess knowing that I am 16 you wonder how I ended up here. I found this place by accident while doing research. So glad I did. Not sure where I would be right now. I go to school and sleep. Thats about it really. I do play on my schools tennis team, sort of, and I enjoy(ed) sports alot before I had to deal with the everyday struggles I do now. So, here goes as to my medical issues I guess. about 4 years ago I got a pain in my left knee...I have fallen off a cliff since then. Yea, thats how bad it has gotten. Even though I went to a ton of docs, I was no never diagnosed with anything. They said they could find nothing and wanted to keep passing me to others docs who all said the same thing. Guess I finally gave that up. I had surgery 2 years ago and a while after noticed more changes. about a year ago I started showing signs of depression and such. sad

Now I have full blown depression, anxiety, and panic. Although, being the age I am, no one will listen to me and my parents just believe it is a 'stage' and it will pass. They don't realize the seriousness. So, now I go to school even though it is so hard for me too. I have depression, anxiety, panic attacks, social phobia, and all kinds of stuff that I deal with everyday. I do see my school counselor, but not much help there. I am talking with her about seeing a professional because I am over 100% sure I need one. I hate around people, I have a hard time dealing with things, I have sensitivities that include cold, sound, light, touch, failure, rejection, perfectionism, organization, and I have some OCD tendencies.

Guess you could say I have my share of issues. But, we all do. When this is all over for me, I hope to use this experience to help others and to educate the public who seem to not be able to understand what we go through on a daily basis. So, hopefully, in the end I can use this as a positive experience and to help others. yeah Sorry so long. I get carried away. Take care and hope you all have a great day!!


Howlyncat
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   Posted 10/23/2007 6:29 AM (GMT -7)   
Hey my friend
I have the perfect person for you to talk to that is full of empathy and DOES understand what this anxiety /panic and depression is all about
She is a A personality does love school and is also having issues with OCD a/p and depression due to my illnesses and losing her bio dad and her step dad and I seperating ......she adores him....... as well as other things she might just be able to talk to you about
This person is my daughter Cait .........around your age and is like you in many ways .........( maybe thats why I likes ya so )
Let me know and I can hook you's up on puter to talk things out she is a fantastic listener and gives great advice .....know from experience

Luvs
LYN
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Zomese
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   Posted 10/23/2007 11:58 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi I'm Zomese (which is actually my cats name),
 
I'm a 28 year old female. I'm married w/ 2 dogs 1 cat & a parrot. I love, love, love animals.
 
I'm an outdoor person. I enjoy going to the lake for camping & water skiing. I read and go to the movies a lot. I enjoy going to Napa & Sonoma for wine tasting and a picnic. I love going to the beach and just watching the waves (very relaxing). I live in the California Bay Area so I'm right in the middle of everything I enjoy doing. My favorite football team is the Raiders! I have my hubby to thank for that.
 
I'm a major girly girl, I love to shop for make up, shoes, purses, perfume, clothes, etc...I enjoy pampering and taking care of myself. I like to surround myself with people who make me laugh. I stay away from people who have the constant ho-hums and poor me's.
 
I'm happy to say I haven't had a panic attack in several months. I'm VERY happy about that! My Bipolar has been in control since Mid September and I'm doing better then I have been for a very long time. The OCD still lingers, but for me that is the least of my problems.
 
I'm really dedicated to a minimum of 30 minutes of cardio a day and I stay away from bad carbs. I believe this has helped me tremendiously wit my bipolar mood swings, and panic/anxiety.
 
So that's me. I'm glad we got to share more about ourselves other than just our afflictions. It's good to remember that we have these disorders they don't have us, just like someone had mentioned earlier. I think that is a really important statement and worth repeating.
 
 
 
 
 


Zomese

28 years old

Bipolar II, Panic Disorder, OCD

Seroquel and Klonopin as needed

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TeNNiSd0C09
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   Posted 10/23/2007 12:50 PM (GMT -7)   
Wow, Lyn, that would be great. I am a Type A personality. I took a Psychology class at my school last year and it was the best class I have ever had. I did perfect in there! Mostly because I was going through or knew about everything beforehand! But, we did a test to see whether we were A or B. So, yea. But, anyways, I would love the chance to talk to her. I love meeting new people. Well, people whom I can actually talk to! In person I just walk away from most people. Its hard for me to meet new people because of the anxiety and such. I stay to myself as much as possible. But, I think it would be a great opportunity. And I look forward to it. Thanks for bringing it up also. It is also great to be able to talk to someone who can understand. Thanks! Just let me know!

liquid
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   Posted 10/23/2007 3:56 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi all, i'm Liquid

I'm 34, i live in Australia, I found this site by doing a google search for forums with people who suffer from the same things as i do.

I'm a chef, And untill i suffered from my anxiety, depression and agoraphobia, i was working in a 5 star restaurant.

I've pretty much been depressed most of my life, but only diagnosed 12 months ago after 5 suicide attempts, i had a really bad childhood, was sent to a boys home, and various foster homes as a child, was molested, and basically I guess i rebelled from then on.

I left school at 13, and started an apprenticeship as a butcher, completed that and then had my own gardening buissnes for 2 years and then did my chefs apprenticeship.

I,ve been a very heavy drinker from the age of 14, been an alcoholic for as long as i can remember, but now i've been sober for almost 12 months. I got into drugs pretty bad in my teens, and then again a year and a half ago, but havent taken any drugs for 12 months. I have 4 children, a very supportive partner who also suffers depression, i have an enourmous passion for food and food science, being close to the beach i used to surf alot until a near shark attack so i'm hoping to conquer my fear of sharks as well.

In the past 2 months i have improved tenfold, especially since joining the family here at HW, everyone here is so understanding and helpful, its the best thing i've done in a long time joining .

i to am here for eveybody, if anyone need to chat private at anytime my email details are in my details section...

((((((((HUGS)))))))) to all, hope evryone has a great day.... :-)


Suffer from major depression, Agoraphobia, Anxiety, Panic attacks, Recovering Alcoholic.
 
I have 4 great kids and a wonderfully supportive partner.
 
"There is a light at the end of the tunnel"
 
 


TeNNiSd0C09
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   Posted 10/23/2007 5:23 PM (GMT -7)   
Wow, liquid, you sure have been through a lot. I am so glad you are doing better! Keep it up! yeah

liquid
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   Posted 10/23/2007 6:48 PM (GMT -7)   

Yeah, has'nt been the best life but the way i look at it is others have suffered worse and mine is improving, so its all a plus for me now.. :-)

And thanks heaps fo your kind words it means alot.. :-)

((((((((HUGS))))))))..to all.. :-)


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I have 4 great kids and a wonderfully supportive partner.
 
"There is a light at the end of the tunnel"
 
 


TeNNiSd0C09
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   Posted 10/23/2007 7:07 PM (GMT -7)   

You are completely right! That's a great way to view things! Thanks too, that is my reminder that no matter how bad things get, someone out there is going through worse. So, glad to hear that your life is improving! That's great! I hope that everyone's life can improve!

We are all in this together! Keep it up! yeah

Wishing everyone well...TeNNiS*


Howlyncat
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   Posted 10/24/2007 5:05 AM (GMT -7)   
TeNNis

I will talk to Cait tomorrow she works tonight at local hospital and I know she would so enjoy talking to you and getting to know you

Hoping you can help out one another out and talk about all types of things .....I know she loves to chat and also loves psycology...........Thanks
Luvs
LYN

EMAIL me your Windows live Mess so I can have Cait ad you k ........


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Post Edited (Howlyncat) : 10/24/2007 7:14:39 AM (GMT-6)


Howlyncat
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   Posted 10/24/2007 6:10 AM (GMT -7)   
Liqued

Thanks for sharing all of the pain and suffering you went thru

YOU are so right you have come 10 fold since joining HW and I for one am glad you are an active part of this family

**All I do is turn on the news for a few minutes and I know I am not nearly or even close to being as bad off as so many others ........

Luvs
LYN


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Post Edited (Howlyncat) : 10/24/2007 7:15:27 AM (GMT-6)


Howlyncat
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   Posted 10/24/2007 6:13 AM (GMT -7)   
Anxiety Queen

Feel free to post your story and your input here
You can also ask about the heart problems as well as on existing thread brought back up by you ........ 

Welcome to HW I hope you will stay with us .........it is a very supportive and loving family forum .........''

LYN


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Post Edited (Howlyncat) : 10/24/2007 7:18:20 AM (GMT-6)


kota
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   Posted 10/24/2007 7:55 AM (GMT -7)   
Helllo I am Kota...from the land of nowhere. North Dakota. I probably suffered from Anxiety along w/ my depression for most of my life but it has just been recenly I feel panic attacks and more anxiety. I don't know if that is life catching up w/ me or a Control thing. I have always felt my life was outta control so if I could control certain things, then I would have some normalcy...uff'da. Liquid, I have had alcoholics in/out of my life. My mom is one and thank goodness didn't raise me. My dad had his bouts w/ drinking as a result of depression and having to raised 3 kids by himself. In HS I gained a step-mom. I use to call her Tilla the Hun cuz it was her way or the highway w/ almost anything. 25 yrs of sobriety and going to meetings has softened her and I see her more of a mom than my own cuz my real mom is a drunk. I am also a greatful member of Al-anon and my sponser is a recovered alcoholic so they can be cool ppl:) I guess I just need to give up control and de-stress my life and take care of myself better as no one will do it for me....ugh

"I use to say our family put the fun in dysfunction...a freind told me NNOOO we put the FUN in dysFUNction." tongue
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Chronic Fatigue
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stkitt
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   Posted 10/24/2007 9:28 AM (GMT -7)   

Holy Moly Lyn,

These people are wonderful.  Where to begin:

Kota,

I am in MN so I believe you are from NoDak............lol.  My son went to NDSU Fargo and was Homecoming King..........my claim to fame.

You sound like you have a good head on your shoulders and you have shared your story which shows you trust as well as you want to get better.  Your reaching out.  Wonderful.  Take my hand and I will help you.

liquid,

You have come so far in such a short time and you have the positive attitude, you are a  inspiration to all who read your posts and I have been impressed with the way you are dealing with your problems head on. Keep on, you are doing it the right way.

I only have one request, would you make Christmas dinner and send it to my house.........a chef I am not. :-)

TeNNis

It is hard to believe from reading your posts that you are in my granddaughter's age range. You are so mature and you have faced your problems and issues taking responsibility for working on getting better.

Everyone here is supporting you and Lyn's Cait is a great young lady, also as wise as her Mom.  I hope you get connected to talk.

Hugs to you. Keep on posting.

Zomese

A young woman after my own heart.  I am fortunate enough to live in the land of Mall of America............let's shop. I am happy to read you are dedicated to a minimum of 30 minutes of cardio a day.  In my retirement career I am a fitness instructor so I am the person that cheers you on.  I work at the YMCA.

I am excited to hear your attacks have stayed away............you are doing great, just awwsome. 

I am proud to get to know each of you and know that I am here, always available by email to if you have a question.

Gentle Hugs

Kitt

 


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Kitt
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hopeisreal
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   Posted 10/24/2007 10:19 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi all!

I'm Laurel. I don't know where to begin....but, I guess I can start with: I am a SAHMom to three "small" children (9,7,5)---have been married 11 to my best friend, and have been suffering with anxiety and panic/depression most recently for the past 6 months! I am 39 years old. I live in a rural area in Upstate NY (near the Adirondacks).

In retrospect, I guess I have always been anxious--b/c I remember having bouts of anxiety/panic when I was 8-12 years old. I didn't want to go on family trips, would cry, make myself throw-up, etc.....my 5 brothers didn't make it easy on my either....... my Mother told me to 'snap out of it' and disregarded my behavior as 'a phase'. My Dad was great---he would hold my hand and say nothing----give me hugs and tell me I would be alright!

From about the age of 13-29 I THOUGHT I was doing great! I loved high school, had many friends, went to college---loved it! Got really good grades, got a professional job---advanced very quickly professionally, got married---and then had my FIRST child!

BAM---that is where it began! I didn't want anyone to hold her, touch her....I felt incredible guilt if I couldn't console her, figure out why she was ill. I know I had Postpartum depression--I just didn't admit it! I still worked Part Time---and that helped me 'switch gears' so I could focus on other things! Then, I had my 2nd child---BAM! Depression again---and anxiety---b/c I wanted to be the PERFECT MOM! I quit my job to stay home with my children----I wanted to do EVERYTHING with them---and be EVERYTHING to everyone! The PERFECT person! My house was spotless (even with two little ones), dinner was always ready, food always in the cupboards, clothes cleaned, noses wiped---you name it ---- it was done!

But---I missed getting a "thanks" " good job" "that's a great idea"---and felt very isolated b/c most of my friends still worked, and I had NO ONE to talk to (that--and living in the sticks---makes it hard to go anywhere)! But, I went ahead and had my THIRD baby! He is my most DIFFICULT child---he's very head-strong, high-maintenance----and I am constantly 'battling' with this kid about HIS way (yes, I am the boss--but, he doesn't want any of that---he's 5!)! That is when DH and I decided it was time to get HIM a vasectomy! LOL!

So, anway-----I think all of this "perfectionism" and control led me to have a "breakdown" of sorts this past May! It started b/c I found four lumps on my right breast----and I had a Panic attack (for about 14 hours----it just didn't go away)----I managed to give myself serious back/chest pains---numbness in my extremities, and thought I was dying. Every little "pain" was death---cancer---etc...... I went to the ER three times---1st time--I had heart checked, pulmonary embolism checked, and gall bladder checked! ALL WERE FINE! The ER MD said, "you're a mom of 3? Here, I am going to write you a script for Valium.... Go follow up with your Primary." I panicked! WHAT? Valium?! I NEVER TOOK THAT STUFF BEFORE! I MUST BE FAILING ... EVERYONE!

2nd time: ER visit was b/c of pain in chest/back, plus my right arm and face/jaw went numb! I was dying! Went back again! "you're just stressed......go home.... call your primary MD tomorrow!" Yeah, OK....

So, I did call MD. I ended up getting tested for (over past 6 months): spine xray, B12 deficiency, STress EKG, abdominal ultrasound, gall bladder ultrasound (which they really thought I had problems with b/c I had all of the systems), gall bladder hid-a-scan, MRI of mid-thoracic back pain, Celiac Test, Rheumatoid/Arthritis Antibody test, and PHysical Therapy for my back/chest. ALL TESTS NORMAL (except Physical Therapy---had some misaligned joints T4, T5, T6, and costo-chondritis).

My MD gave me Lexapro (10 mg to start) to try along with the Valium 1/2 mg)! I went off the edge (literally)---I thought I was dying---I felt the walls in my bedroom were closing around me! I thought my DH was going to take away my children---and I would end up in a homeless shelter b/c I was 'crazy'----I cried for four days, couldn't sleep, would close my eyes and see "eyes" looking at me, couldn't eat, couldn't leave my bedroom, but couldn't stay there either, had stomach pains, back pains, and diarrhea! That was Memorial Day Weekend! I explained to my children that I had really bad back pains (which I did but also lied) and told them me crying etc... wasn't their fault and I would be better soon! My sister-in-law (who is a nurse) happened to be visiting that day---and she helped me, and DH, a great deal!

Called my MD the day after Memorial Day-----told me to get off of Lexapro and Valium. Prescribed Klonopin 1 mg--- PRN---do not take all of the time! I took it---felt a little more calm. But, the back/chest pain still around!

OK--fast forward almost 6 months (b/c this is getting long)! I have since been going to a counselor---she is OK--but, I NEED someone who has Cognitive Behavior background---and I don't think she does! I am going to see a back specialist--b/c my mid-back is messed up! BUT---he's not sure if it's b/c of my GI problems or my back! I had my 1st GI specialist REFUSED to see me (saw him 2 years ago b/c of possible GERD---no reason given----jerk!)and when I was trying to find another GI specialist to go to--it was like, as soon as they heard I saw someone else, they would buckle and then end up saying NO (even though my last GI specialist only found slight hiatal hernia, some 'spots' on the outside of my esphogus, and mild gastritis)---and have had to wait 8 weeks to see this other guy (who is supposed to be good-fingers crossed)! I take Klonopin when I need it, but feel I "NEED" more than not----going back to my Primary MD Nov. 12th to discuss this---and all of the hoopla with the back specialist, GI specialist, and Chiropractor!

I FOuND HW doing an online search---and am thankful you answer my posts (and sorry they go on forever)! I feel very alone in this situation. DH is pretty good---but, I know he is starting to get 'upset' about the whole thing b/c it's taking so long with me to figure this whole GI thing out---and he doesn't know what to do! My mother, who is almost 80, told me to 'snap out of it'.......She has her own problems, I don't want to worry her.

So, when I post that I am "a wreck"---it's usually b/c I am.......I tried to take Lexapro, and Celexa---both ended up giving me symptoms like I listed above! The klonopin helps--but, I don't want to be addicted to it!

My counselor thinks I suffer from: 1) health anxiety and 2) anticipatory anxiety------and have a tremendous amount of guilt (which I do)! My guilt gives me anxiety/panic attacks!

I have lost 15 lbs b/c I still have GI problems! I feel like there is a BALL under my sternum, pains in my right chest/back and sternum. It hurts to eat food----but, I forces myself b/c I don't want to wither away (I am 5'9" and 130 lbs right now)..... LUCKILY---I am going to see the GI specialist (#2) NEXT TUESDAY (10/30)----I am afraid to see him, b/c I read the report from the first JERK GI specialist, and he made note that I cried and it was perplexing......I was "crying about nothing, and her aches and pains are not about her GI system---possibly some neurosis"........He had the personality of a rock, anyway! But----now I have to go and explain this whole thing again to GI #2----and I am afraid he will read my chart from GI #1 and think I'm crazy! Again, I feel like a failure!

So----thanks HW for letting me explain myself----and venting, and asking questions you probably are tired of answering----I am sorry this is so long----but, it felt good typing it (through many tears)---and I hope to get through this period of anxiety-----b/c I really am a fun, good person---and am not feeling that way right now! :(

Laurel

nyliz
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   Posted 10/24/2007 10:51 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi,

I'm Liz - just turned 30 and I live in UpState NY. I am the mother of four children ages 13, 8, 6, and 3. Three boys and a girl, they are wonderful beautiful and rambunctious. I work full time as a Senior Staffing Specialist for an international employment agency where I've been for four years. My husband is a chef who works 65 hours a week and can be wonderfully helpful on the brief occasions when he's home. I've dealt with panic and anxiety since September of 1999 and would LOVE to never feel that way again... alas it is part of who I am. I love to sing and do so every moment I can (I'm pretty good at it too). My dream has always been to be famous, acting or singing. I love to read People magazine because I like to think that I'm keeping up on what's going on with my circle of friends who just haven't met me yet... ha ha ha. I love to write and have started several stories and written numerous poems. I am a LEO through and through... love to be the center of attention, laugh a lot and worry just as much. The biggest fear I have is dying young and leaving my children and family behind so health anxiety has quite a hold on me although I'm currently reading a book that is helping me with this. I read all the time and especially love romance novels. Someday I will travel the world - of course I will require an Ativan IV drip to get on the plane but will not let fear stop me. I come from a large family of very high achievers to include Doctors, Teachers, PHD's, Executives, Nurse's and even a professional football player (back in the 30's Go Eagles). I have always felt that I will be happy when I achieve a certain degree or position to equal that of my relatives (this stems from becoming a mother at 17 and having everyone gasp and sputter while telling me that I've given up my dreams and will never live up to my potential) SOOOO not true as my children are my greatest achievement and nothing could top them - I have been working hard to teach myself to be thankful for who I am and what I have everyday. I love being a part of this family and will always be greatful for that day when I was so scared that in seaching the internet for some relief I stumbled upon this wonderful community. Thanks so much for letting me share some of myself and know that I am here for each and every one of you.

Liz

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   Posted 10/24/2007 10:55 AM (GMT -7)   
Hope is real...ur situation sounds so much like mine. Some of my conditions are because of hereditary but others are not. Believe me I know a lot about guilt. My mom left when I was 7 so we(older brother and younger sis and I) raised by my dad. Because I was the oldest girl, I was put or jumped in to the caregiver mode. I also w/ abused while I was younger. I almost had a nervous breakdown yesterday from stress of life and all my symptoms. Do I think I have it any better /worse than anyone else. No. I definitely have work to do to get healthy. BTW have two boys...9&4
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   Posted 10/24/2007 11:06 AM (GMT -7)   
By the way Kitt it would be kinda neat to meet huh...iffin u ever get this way or I there. My cuz lives in South St. Paul and best friend, wife and twins live near Forrest Lake

Also Liz...I am a sucker for Romance so some day I hope to write a Romance Novel...which means I would probably joine the Minn chapter of Romance writers :-)

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   Posted 10/24/2007 11:12 AM (GMT -7)   
"The biggest fear I have is dying young and leaving my children and family behind so health anxiety has quite a hold on me although I'm currently reading a book that is helping me with this."

liz: would you mind sharing the title of the book you are reading! This is one of my biggest fears too! Thanks!

Laurel

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   Posted 10/24/2007 11:15 AM (GMT -7)   
Hey Laurel,
You sound just like me... so many people relying on you, so much pressure that you put on yourself to be everything to everyone, and fearing the life ending disease is looming ever closer... if you would please take a look at a book called "It's Not All In Your Head" How health anxiety can be making you sick.... I don't have the book right in front of me but I'm pretty certain that is the correct name. I ordered it from Amazon and it's written by two doctors who specialize in health anxiety. It takes you through information regarding the various forms of anxiety (specifically health anxiety) it asks you to answer questions about yourself, it shares stories from others who also suffer from health anxiety and uses cognitive behavioral therapy to help you change the way you think about your fears. You will be surprised to learn how the fear that something is wrong actually perpetuates the symptoms you feel. I'm only about a third of the way through it and I already feel better - I am very hopeful that this book will help me get better. Please take a look and see if maybe it can help you too. If you ever want to talk I'm here for you. Good Luck

Liz

Liz

hopeisreal
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   Posted 10/24/2007 11:21 AM (GMT -7)   
Thank you so much Liz! I will check out Amazon and see if I can find it! God Bless!

Laurel!
 
ETA:  I just ordered it from my local library----I will be interested in reading about this topic! Thanks! :-)

Post Edited (hopeisreal) : 10/24/2007 12:52:12 PM (GMT-6)


nyliz
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   Posted 10/24/2007 11:30 AM (GMT -7)   
Laurel make sure to let me know what you think of it if you decide to read it. I would be interested to see if it helps you.

ps. no Dr has the right to make you feel bad (first GI Doc) don't give him that power... it sounds like he shouldn't be practicing IMO

Liz

TeNNiSd0C09
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   Posted 10/24/2007 12:15 PM (GMT -7)   

Thanks Kitt. Sometimes I feel like I am not normal because the people my age dont act the way I do. Last week I had a talk with my counselor about how I am different. Its strange alot of the time. I seem to understand the world more than most. (my age I mean, and maybe some older people) But, I think alot. I am not sure it is a weird thing or if it is a gift! I like to think of it as a gift! But, most of the time I feel so disconnected with the people around me. I live in my own world all the time. And all I do in it is think about stuff constantly. It is sometimes annoying, but I guess since I dislike being around people and dont like to talk it makes sense! I used to not be this way so I am not sure if it has to do with whatever is going on in my head or if I have been given a special gift or something. I am content with it most of the time! Except when I am around annoying people who dont seem to understand anything at all! That can be frustrating. Personally I dont see how someone can live in a world if they dont understand anything going on in it! But thats just me!

Sorry, venting. I do that alot. I apologize!

Oh yea, now I remember, Lyn, I would love that! Always nice to meet new people and learn new things! You just let me know, I would be glad to chat with her. Thanks!

....TeNNiS....

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