Over the past 5 days or so i've taken a few steps backwards, i was doing really well then fell in a heap and went back to feeling all messed up again. I didnt want to do anything which was really frustrating, because i didnt eant to lie in bed and i didnt want to sit around but at the same time i didnt want to do anything at all.
I've also had 2 panic attacks for no apparent reason, not big attacks but very out of the ordinary. Also been very angry with everyone for no reason, darn i hate feeling like this. Also i just realised something i've been doing for as long as i can remember, i have conversations in my head with people, and can actually hear the voices of the people im talking to. I think i may be losing the plot.
Although, i did give myself a kick in the rump and told myself to pull it together, and i did have a productive day yesterday, cleaned the house from top to bottom, went for a walk around the block then to the beach, spent some more time outside, cooked dinner,and felt good for a while, but today feels like another slump day. So i think i need to have another chat to myself, because my vegetable garden needs a good weeding as weve had lots of rain recently and the weeds are thick.
Thanks for taking the time to read my venting.
(((((((HUGS))))))) to all..
Suffer from major depression, Agoraphobia, Anxiety, Panic attacks, Recovering Alcoholic.
I have 4 great kids and a wonderfully supportive partner.
"There is a light at the end of the tunnel"